As I continue to prepare for this journey I keep finding myself asking, “why this, why me Lord?” I will mess this up or I’m not good enough to do something this big. And these words have resounded in my mind for decades now. I tell myself that I am not good enough or that I will fail. And then there is the fact that this is by far the scariest and most daunting thing I have ever done in my life! Outdoor toilets, sleeping in tents, no fast food and HUGE bugs! I’m terrified!
But I read a devotion today that talked about God giving us tasks and duties far beyond our capabilities. Why would He do that? Because we need to experience His love and all-mighty power. We need to relinquish our fears of our own inadequacies and what we feel we are limited to do and trust in God to provide and give us what we lack. Isn’t that what he wants from us?
Complete sacrifice.
Complete trust.
Complete surrender.
Completely abandoning what fears, understanding and ability we think we have and take up the cross and trust Him? We provide the vessel and He will resound through us.
Moses questioned God about going to Pharaoh in Exodus 3:11. He asked, “But who am I to go before Pharaoh?” Then he goes on in chapter 4 verse 10 to continue to give excuses to God saying, “people won’t believe me, I’m not a good public speaker, I’m not good with words. Please! Send someone else!” But that was not God’s intentions for Moses. Moses needed to face his fears and surrender to God and that is what he did. God countered Moses’ reply with, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go. I will help you speak and give you what to say.” And that is why we know this great story of Moses, God’s plans for him and what Moses was able to do when he (finally) surrendered to God.
We are all Moses’ and God has great plans for all of us. We need to be willing to step out on our faith and trust that He will guide us to bigger and better things.
Is God calling you to step out on faith?
