I’m not sure how everyone’s fund raising and support is going, and I hope you know I am thinking of ALL of you and wishing nothing but the very BEST for you all during this time, I just wish I could say the same for myself.
Today I received a discouraging letter from a relative. First let me begin by saying that this lady is my great aunt (my grandma’s sister) and someone who I have always considered to be my grandmother for years of reasons. She is someone who I adore and look up to. She has been a devout Catholic her whole life and I would say her faith is amazing. She lost her husband early on and has proven a great amount of strength for years after becoming a widow. Those are just a few reasons why I just love and adore her. While my family and I still lived in New York we did everything for her, and I mean everything..
Her letter today had said that shes sorry that she cant support something she doesn’t believe in and she just can’t seem to understand why I would want to do something like this. She said that she would be praying for me daily, but only for the hope that I will change my mind or that something will occur so that I won’t be able to go on this trip. I was crushed. Cried right then and there. I’m under a lot of stress right now, especially because I am worrying so much about getting the money to go so I really need all the support I can get.. not negativity. This isn’t the first time I received a negative response but this one really hit my heart the most.
A few days ago I was reading my Bible and right before I closed it I said..”Lord find me some words of wisdom to live by right now, something to open my eyes and put me at ease”. This is what I came across.
And
we know that in all things GOD works for the good of those who love
him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
we know that in all things GOD works for the good of those who love
him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
I was beside myself. Those were the truest of words that spoke directly towards me!!
I guess what I ended my day thinking is this… God has a plan for my life. He has shut just about every door and with held every possible opportunity for a year knowing that I was going to keep growing in my faith and that I am supposed to be a part of The World Race. As much as I worry and stress.. get discouraged or down by others.. I need to keep my faith. I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. I don’t need to have everyones support and approval because GOD is taking me to a place in my heart I could never have dreamed possible. HE will make sure that I go on this trip and HE will take care of me every step of the way. I am not going to earn my place in Heaven by pleasing people, but by living my life the way God has intended me to.
To anyone who is feeling as discouraged as I am.. hold your head up high. God has selected YOU to do something so incredibly amazing with your life. Keep the faith.
