After the train ride we arrived in a town and stayed in a hotel for one day/night. The next morning (6am) each team would board buses to different cities in China and start our ministries. I was very tired, but it was 11am. So I forced myself to stay awake all day. I decided to take advantage of the HOT SHOWER and it was amazing, until I got LOCKED IN THE BATHROOM. LOL, This hilarious event was all captured on video and I will post it when I can! I went out to Lunch with the Ladies of Light. (Pics) Then I read “Radical” by David Platt, the entire book in a few hours. Good stuff! Ate romaine noodles, chatted with the girls in our room, and then I fell asleep at 9pm.
I didn’t have to wake up the next morning because GOD woke me up at 11:30pm (2hrs sleep) and kept me up all night. I had deep thoughts, visions, and prayer until the alarm went off at 5:30am. I thought about my past, I thought about my future, and I thought about my present with the WORLD RACE! It was very intense! I wish I could have written it all down but I didn’t. I felt like if I paused my conversation with GOD and got up and grabbed a pin and paper it would end. I believe that it was GOD talking to me, and important, therefore it would stick with me.
Here is the short version:
MY PAST – I have had supernatural connections with the men in my life. When I have fallen in love with a guy (made a soul tie) I have been able to sense their feelings and predict things to come. Many times, through dreams or visions, I’ve sensed what a guy was thinking/doing. Even, if it has been years since I have talked to or seen them. I have countless stories of these over the years. Most of my close friends and family are aware of some of these occasions, as coincidence. I have never really admitted it as a gift. It usually freaks me out every time it happens, so after it’s served its purpose, I brush it off, and forget it. However during my awake time with GOD, this night, he brought new light to these dreams and visions. THIS IS A SPECIAL GIFT …. not coincidence, not psychic abilities, not for my relationships with men!! My past lifestyle (soul tie connections) has jaded this gift. I now know that my gift would be so much more powerful and beneficial if it were between GOD and I and not clouded with my past. I prayed that GOD would forgive and erase my past. I prayed that my intimacy with GOD would grow and my gift would be renewed in HIM!
MY FUTURE – My thoughts then shifted to home. Will I continue to think of Orlando, Florida as home? Is this mission leading me somewhere else? If I go home what will it be like? I am such a different person even after just one month on this mission journey. If I met this person ( I have become) a few years ago I would have thought she was a JESUS FREAK! I still have so many months left. How much more will I change and grow in GOD? The book “Radical” was amazing … my hearts words in a book. I don’t know if I can even attend an American Church ever again now. I feel strongly convicted in the importance of mission work and being like JESUS! Churches at home are NOT sending people out and building the KINGDOM OF GOD. They are building their congregations, sound systems, church buildings, and programs. The Bible is very specific about GOING OUT INTO THE NATIONS! The churches in America are investing in the wrong THINGS instead of the right PEOPLE! I have so much to say on this subject but I’ve said enough for now. If you want to really understand me or if you want to argue this with me, first read the book! “Radical – Taking Back Your Faith From the American Dream” by David Platt! I also entertained the possibility of marriage and family. My relationship with a very Godly man back home has grown since I have been on this trip. How this is possible I’m not sure!?!?! I joined this race as a single woman. I wanted my heart and soul to chase GOD alone. I wanted to see the world and see if there was something else out there for me (other than getting married and working a 9-5 like everyone else.) I’ve never been or enjoyed being normal! So I’m still asking GOD daily to guide my path. I pray that my feelings and desires come from GOD alone. I feel when I’m successfully following GODs will the devil knows my heart is my weakness and uses it. I prayed that I would correctly chase the future GOD has for me! I prayed that my new wisdom in HIM, when and if I return to Orlando, is valuable and well received by church, family, & friends!
MY PRESENT- God strongly pulled my thoughts toward my present path … the World Race. I started to wonder … What exactly am I doing here on the race? What is my purpose here? Yes, to spread the Gospel … but how exactly will I be doing this throughout? What is my GOD niche in this? I didn’t get an answer or a big revelation because it is a daily journey of dependence and understanding with GOD. I will discover the answer to all this in HIS time. My mind soon drifted to each girl on my team (Ladies Of Light.) I had visions for each girl…
Maggie – I saw a battle between her Emotion & her Logic. She is truly gifted and conflicted. Her strong emotional depth comes from her mother. Her super smart logic comes from her father. A lot of times these two (thought sources) can cause her inner turmoil. As she walks through this life, it will be rare that her emotional and her logical thoughs will align (make sense at the same time.) However, there is great hope! I was told that when she is able to make the two (Logic & Emotion) both make sense and work together … she can be sure she is making a decision that is right and of GOD!
Rachel- I saw her standing in a “T” formation, each of her hands holding onto a rope. One rope represented her past the other her future. The two were pulling her apart and hurting her. GOD wants her to “LET GO!” to live more in the moment. She will see he is all around her PRESENT and she will have so much JOY!
Shannon – I saw a hand full of aces but one ace was falling from her hands. I also saw a forest. Many beautiful trees surrounding her but she was focused on the one that had been chopped down. I feel her world and ideas will be gladly shaken by the devil. She is a strong woman of GOD with so many special gifts. Watch out and stay beautifully strong! The stronger you are in GOD the more the devil will try to hurt you. My experience, with just this, encouraged me to tell her “I’ve got your back, when you need a safe place to lean.”
Ashely- I saw Queen Elizabeth and Hitler. She is the leader of our team. She is the youngest of our team. GOD has blessed her with wisdom and leadership gifts. Queen Elizabeth was know for her great compassionate leadership. Queen Elizabeth truly loved her people before herself. Hitler was highly intelligent and had great authority. Hitler’s hunger for selfish power, before others, lead to his demise. Leadership cannot be mistaken for power (authority) The greatest leaders are first and foremost servants of others. (Bible verses) She needs to always ask herself (discernment)… what is GOD (Queen Elizabeth) leadership and what is Devil (Hitler) leadership? Fortunately, I know GOD is in her and my Queen Elizabeth vision was most strong! This will be a rollercoaster of emotional challenge/conflict as GOD has empowered her as a leader in life (not just the world race!)
(I’m sorry I didn’t have a vision for Wendy, as she had temporarily left the mission to grieve the loss of her mother. I did say to her , during our good-byes, at the airport (Philippines) “See you in Africa!” I never doubted she would return to the Ladies Of Light. I predicted Africa and only one month away. I am so glad she is back. I know GOD will give me a special message for her soon!}
I wasn’t sleeping with all this going on in my head between 11:30pm & 5:30am. So I also prayed over each girl as they slept. I asked GOD to bless them with awesome rest. I prayed that I should be able to express my visions for them well. I prayed I’d sleep well (catch up on sleep) during my 4hr bus ride to our ministry town that day. I did sleep amazingly well on the bus! Then I shared my visions with each girl that next night, in our ministry town hotel room.
Our ministry town I can’t name, but it was in the heart of China, right on the edge of Tibet. Everything was in walking distance, including a Buddhist monastery. It felt like something from an old Asian movie or a dream. Partly because it was so simple, old fashioned, and small and partly because the elevation(high altitude) was messing with me (dizzy!) LOL
