Haiti…a place of sorrow and sadness, of poverty and death…a place that desperately needs hope! This country has been in economic depression, natural disasters and spiritual bondage for years. Much of the land is desolate, the cities are filthy and may of the streets are dangerous. No foreigners would want to sign up for a cruise or vacation to Haiti. Very few Christians want to go as missionaries.
I personally was looking for Haiti the most out of all the countries I am planning on visiting this year. I was excited to be working with the poorest of the poor and being able to be used by God to help the people. Now, after having been there, I will be honest and admit that I do not want to ever go back. That bothers me. It has been at the forefront of my mind while I’ve been transitioning to our next country. Haiti desperately needs Jesus…but who is going to go? One of my teammates asked what my response would be if God called me to go back to Haiti. Would I surrender myself willing, or would I struggle with obeying God if that is what He asked of me?
Now, I don’t know if God will ever ask me to return to Haiti or not, but this experience has made me realize some things. I have realized that I am a lot more attached to my comfortable life than I thought. I like being in a safe and beautiful environment and don’t really want to give up that dream yet. God has revealed to me these things…these desires… that I still need to let go of to be able to offer all of myself to Him and His service. I don’t think I am quite there yet…but I want to get to the point where I can say “yes’ joyfully to whatever God asks me to do.
