This story is not profound.
However, I recently went through an experience that was pretty un-natural for me. Who knows if this will impact you or not, either way…this is what ordinary experiences look like in un-ordinary circumstances.
Ok, ok….soooo as most of you know…this journey concludes on November 20th. Last month I was in charge of “Next steps Committee” which meant that I would prepare ideas to mobilize my team and prepare them for home and stepping into their passions, calling, etc.
As members of my team sent their resumes out to prospective jobs, I began to think about my passions, calling, etc. All I knew was that I wanted to love God, and love people. As I shared in the past, I am passionate about the people and future of New York City. I also have a huge heart for Australia and the movement God is doing there. I have dreams of starting a clothing line, a restaurant, and a women’s ministry, as well as write a book on the side. (I am a dreamer, what can I say?)
So, I sat in the living room and pondered where to start. I then got an email about a job opening for Sunglass hut. My natural instinct was – AWESOME!
Here is a bit about the job:
>Description: Blog about fashion and events around NYC and the world
- $100,000 compensation*
- A fully-furnished apartment in Manhattan
- $1,000/month styling allowance
- VIP passes to fashion shows in NYC, Milan, Paris and more
- The time of your life
- Relocation Allowance — A one-time payment by check of $5,000.
- Equipment access – will have the use of SH owned equipment
to include a computer, PDA, a digital video and/or still camera. - Travel expenses – Expenses for travel approved by the SH to include airfare,
hotel, ground transportation, meals and entertainment which will be paid by the
SH - Miscellaneous expenses — Mobile phone and various wireless accounts associated
with performance will be paid by the SH
I thought this was perfect! I could have a rent free apartment in the city while making a salary, and on my free time I could volunteer at Hillsong and save my money to open a restaurant in 2012. This job would also enable me to continue to travel and meet people all around the world, while sharing Gods love.
As I began filling out my application, I heard a faint whisper ...”Stop.”
I spent the afternoon praying about this job opportunity. It seemed perfect. However, I believed God didn’t want me to apply for this job. Nothing is inherently wrong with this job, its just not where I am supposed to be. Then I started looking for other job opportunities online. Again, I heard “Stop.”
I spent more time in prayer and talking with Jessica about what I was processing. This was so hard for me because I am naturally a planner and I want to be responsible for my arrival in New York with a job lined up.
However, I believe God is calling me to surrender. Surrender what feels natural once again. To let go of control, once again. To trust His perfect plans and timing for my life.
I know this isn’t profound, and many of you may be very use to a lifestyle that requires complete surrender. However, this taught me how much God will lead those who are willing to yield. So here I am Lord…willing to go, and love…
