WARNING: THIS MAY BE A HARD CONCEPT TO GRASP
So…I have been having a hard time with IDENTITY. There has been talk of bald heads and no make-up as challenges to address these issue. I have also been struggling with FUNDRAISING and giving up control. I am doing 101 things to raise money… except for trusting!
I decided to sell most of my things to raise money, however I was going to keep my Louis Vuitton Duffle as a keepsake. This bag had sentimental value to me for many reasons. 1) This was the first major purchase I ever made ON MY OWN 2) It represented my first job in NYC, the hours of work, the tears from exhaustion and the reward of saving 3) I felt great carrying this bag! I struggled with finances my whole life…and to have LOUIS VUITTON luggage meant ONE THING…I MADE IT!
Yet, I felt something aching on my heart…to let go of my material items!
Then I came across the scripture :
” Everything they do is for men to see : They make their phylacteries wide and the tassels on their garments long; they love the place of honor at banquets and the most important seats in the synagogues; they love to be greeted in the marketplaces and to have men call them ‘Rabbi'” ( Matt. 23: 5-7)
It was true
Everything I was doing was to impress others…this was just another bag but I craved the status that fell behind it. I loved being known in NYC. I felt great in designer clothes and getting past the impossible door.
BUT IM DONE!
Therefore ( as hard as it still is for me ) I am selling my Louis Vuitton Duffle. I trust this is what I am supposed to do…even though I tried convincing myself it was possibly the enemy. But let’s call a spade a spade…I dont think the enemy would want you to sell a designer bag to raise money towards ministering to others!
Goodbye Louis Vuitton, hello treasures God has in store for me
(p.s. if you wanna buy the bag you can here :
http://www.jessimarquez.com/apps/webstore/products/show/943444
