Hello Friends,
Tonight I have the strongest calling to share my heart with you all; it might be a little disorganized but that me at this moment.
Over the past week a lot has been going on, I moved back home to my parents house (thanks mom and dad), the program I volunteer for has started again sense the break for Christmas, now that I am home I have no more excuses to pro-long my fundraising, and I have been put on the opening shift at work which is 5am-1: 30pm. Through all of these changes and challenges I know in my heart that God is at work and preparing me for this trip.
So to start moving back home, WOWZA! Lets just say it here and now that I really had the best roommates for my first time out of the house, they are my brother and sister in Christ and have been a huge support in this process. They are moving away in March and moving out was a lot harder then I thought, this couple had become like a family. It has been hard coming back home. Through having to say good bye I know that God is preparing my heart for the times when my heart will be broken, having to say these good byes 11 times will not be easy, this one is just the first of many to come.
Now that I am home full time I have no real excuse to put off my fundraising, I always said “my home church is to far away to get anything started” well now I have received a swift kick in the pants and I have to get this ball rolling, cruising in fact so I can go on this incredible journey.
Younglife, this is a non-denominational youth group for 9th-12th graders and I am a leader, we meet each Monday night for club, we play fun games, get to know kids, and most importantly share the word with them. We simply love on these kids so that they can see the love our Heavenly Father has for them through us. Now here is the thing, I am so shy. Yes I work at Starbucks, upbeat and outgoing is written in my job description but these are teenagers, they are scary, I was never the popular kid in high school but being a leader I am up in front of the kids and also making the first move toward friendships with them. God is working on my heart in these times preparing me to have courage in my faith and the strength to share it with others.
Work, I am a shift supervisor, which is stressful at times, I am in charge when the manager isn’t there and I keep the shift running smoothly, God is preparing my heart of leadership and responsibility.
With each of these things going on, I feel like I am being pulled in a million different directions but with every step I know that the Lord is by my side, when I lean on him instead of myself he will take care of me, he will give me more then I can handle but that is simply to remind me that I am not meant to do this alone but the rely on him for encouragement and support. He’s got my back on this one.
After getting to know my teammates a little, the best you can through Facebook, I sometimes feel unworthy most of these people have four-year degrees, have fancy jobs, or are still in school. I look at all of these things and say, “God how do I compare, how can I serve with these people when I have nothing similar to offer,” time and time again I am reminded that I have the capability to love, that he is preparing each and every one of us in our own ways for this trip and everyone will bring a little something different to the table, we cant all have four year degrees because we are each our own unique person created in the most beautiful image of our God and Father.
Thanks for reading everyone, just something that has been on my heart lately! You rock!
Jesse
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