The World Race is all about change. It's all about making positive steps toward the person we need to be. Steps that can make you a better you to be able to help others make positive changes in their lives.
This month, my idea of change is leaving behind my lack of confidence in who I am and what I say and becoming a man standing solid and unwavering. To be the man of God that I need to be as well as the husband and father I hope to one day be, confidence is no longer a suggestion, but a requirement.
It's a difficult road, always doubting yourself and believing that you're worth less than you actually are, but God has blessed me by putting 6 people in my life that wont hestitate to tell me who I need to be. They wont hesitate to tell me that they enjoyed working with me after seeing a new and confident Jesse. They wont hesitate to tell me that what I have to say is just as important as theirs.
This month is all about shutting my mind down. Forgetting every negative statement ever made about me. Every slander; every curse; every insult. Shutting it all out and realizing that 'hey, I'm an intelligent, respectful, good guy.' Realizing that who I believe myself to be is who I really am. What I make myself out to be is who I'm really going to be.
I struggle quite a bit with speaking before thinking and a lot of what I say is negativity about myself. This month is being spent not saying anything. Remaining mute until I've carefully assessed what I want to say in my head and then voicing it.
Currently, my squad is in Haiti. Many of the teams are working together for Missions of Hope International. My team is helping to build a bungalow and one thing that is helping me to become a bit more confident in who I am is having done construction in the past and being able to apply that knowledge in the building of this home.
That's briefly what this month is looking like. We leave for NYC on February 11th and then that night we fly out to Romania for the start of our 3rd country. Please keep my squad in your prayers as many of us have been sick this month. Also, on April 1st, I need to have a total of $11,000 in my account to be able to continue on this trip. Currently, I'm at around $8700. Please consider becoming a part of this trip, donating, and receiving blog updates.
I'm not exactly sure when I'll be able to post another blog as internet is very spotty down here, but I'll do my best. Thanks y'all!
