I often question myself. What do I want to do with my life? Where am I going? How am I going to get there? Ive never been to college. I don't have the money and cimcumstances prevent me from getting grants and scholarships. So how am I going to get an education that will allow me to have a career?
I began thinking about what I wanted to major in if I ever did go to college. I came to the conclusion that photojournalism is what I would major in. I love writing. I've always been fairly descriptive and imaginative, and I love photography. Who doesn't? However, God had other plans for me. I recently applied for and was denied acceptance to a short-term mission trip because I hadn't been attending this particular church that I applied at very long. So that door was shut in my face.
I've often heard the saying, "when God shuts one door, He opens another." Well, He opened this one. A friend of mine is going on one of the July World Races and he told us all about it at a college ministry group I go to. I suppose, as soon as I heard about it my heart pricked and I knew I had to look into it. I went home and prayed about it for a few days and applied 3 days later.
Now comes the real question and let me see if I can look inside and answer it as I type. Why do I feel called to this mission trip?
I've been through more than most people my age. I've lived in homeless shelters, Ive lived feet away from every type of criminal you can think of. I've had my family taken from me, my famiy has disowned me.
Through it all, God kept me from harm. Kept me protected. Each time I left, I came back and there He was. God was right there through everything I've seen; everything I've done. I think it would be awesome for more people to turn to God when they're down or depressed; going through whatever. God will hear us if we call on Him. I want to help make that possible. I'm in the same boat as everyone overseas. Not for one moment do I believe that I'm in a better position than anyone else; than anyone who lives in a hut, or eats one meal per day. They and I are the same. We just live in two different culters. I believe that if a person turns to God with an open and honest heart then He will hear you. If I can help people to realize that, then I've accomplished something.
