i know its been a long time since i posted anything. A lot has happened since training camp in october, too much for one post, so it will be in parts.
a day before im supposed to fly out for training camp the money came in. I was ecstatic and blown away at Gods provision and thought if he provided this far then im going to be fine. I got to training camp and it was going good. As I was faced with things in my life i needed to deal with breakthrough happend, healing happend, all was going well. as day three came around, i was approached by my leadership and they voiced there concerns that i wasn’t in a position to go. In lamens terms i wasnt ready, spiritually, emotionally,and mentally i had to grow before they felt comftertable sending me out.
Hearing this i was crushed, confused, and unsure as to why i was even there. By the end of lunch they officially decided that it would be best if i were to go home, work on what i need to work on, and launch at a later date when im more prepared and equipped.
Again was crushed, i wasnt sure how to respond, i was somewhere between numb and sad.
I called my Mom and told her what was happening, it was the hardest phone call ive had to make.
Her response was surprising. She said she didnt think i was ready either, but i had to hear it from somewhere other than her and at home. Its funny how God will take you from where you are to teach you things. He took the Israelite’s into the desert to teach them, he took me to Tennessee.
The bus ride to Atlanta was a time to think about it all. Im still not sure how to put it into words. But im gonna end it here. wait for part 2.
