Happy Thanksgiving Canada !!
"Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus" 1 Thessalonians 5:18
After finding out just 2 weeks ago that i would be traveling around the world as of next July, I could say that i can't remember the last time i felt more excited! I feel so blessed with this amazing opportunity and thankful for all the people supporting me.
The last two weeks however have been some of the most spritually exhausted to say the least. I felt God really preparing me for what was in store this year to come and literally forcing let go of any attachement i have to this world. After a series of events taking place at my apartment here in Ottawa i found myself packing a back and heading home for Thanksgiving weekend and i will fully admit i was not feeling the least bit thankful. It was not my plan to go home but after having some issues in my apartment which is the 3rd place i have moved to in 1 year i had nowhere else to stay for the weekend and i truely felt homeless.
I have no bed no couch and what i thought would be a nice comfortable new 2 bedroom apartment has now turned into somewhat of a mess with an airmattress until things get sorted out. I can truely say i am uncomfortable in my living situation but i Praise God and thank him for putting me here ! I had no idea that attachement i had built up to all my things and that feeling i had after they were gone left me so empty. I felt so angry and lost that after working so hard this past year and storing up things nice beautiful things, i would have to start all over again spending more money and buying more things.
"The world and it's desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever"
1John 2:17
My first reaction to all this was i just wanted to see my family and that was when i found myself realizing what i should really be thankful for. I felt disgusted with how much comfort i had found in the nice lifestyle i had given myself and the attachement to my "things". I know God is really preparing me for living out of 1 bag in a tent for 11 months and it goes to show what we think we really need as opposed to maybe its all things we just want because our standards of needs are so high. I realize this as i get just the same goodnight sleep on an air mattress as i did on my previous queen size luxurious bed. For me its getting over the feeling of being uncomfortable with how my situation looks to the standards places my the North American world and know what i can translate those feelings into thanks i know that God will provide for all my needs and i need to give him all the props for what hes blessed me with
After spending time with my family back home in North Bay for the weekend even the sermon preached at my old church left me so filled and also convicted. The pastor preached about David and even when his city and family and his soldiers wives were burnt down and taken from him he still gave thanks to God. WOW that really made me feel selfish for crying over my ikea couch. So God i say thanks to you right now ! Thank you for taking extreme measure if thats what it costs to make me realize that in all things i should give thanks, aswell that as long as i have you i have all i need and i feel packed and ready for missions 🙂 ! Trust in God guys and he will provide in every aspect of your life. In healing, in your job situation, financial stability, relationships with family and friends. Don't dwell on whats missings but give thanks for whats there and you will see the love the Father has for you !
)h and i also give thanks for how beautiful God is and that being the only Canadian right now this picture is for all my teamates on S squad.! a little peice of Canada and all its fall colours 🙂
God Bless !
