It’s official. I have become attached to the kids at our ministry and now want to bring all of them home.

At first when Sinamon and I were placed in the childcare room for the month I wasn’t sure what to think. It was clearly not what I expected when coming to Cambodia or on this trip in general. I guess you could say it was almost a disappointment even though I love kids. I knew from the beginning I was in need of a change of heart and a release from those expectations in order for God to use me to the fullest.
 

Two short weeks later, my heart has definitely changed, and I have fallen in love with each of the children at Daughters. My love for them continues to grow every day that we’re at the center, it’s kind of ridiculous. But the Lord is good, and He has allowed me to have special moments with some of the kids and just times of learning.

Today, I had a moment when I realized just how much my heart has broken for them and how much I adore them. It was a perfect moment with little David while everything else in the room disappeared. All the noise and commotion, kids crying and screaming, toys hitting the ground and slamming together silenced, and it was just me, David, and Jesus.

As I sat on the floor with the kids and put together puzzles, David began to cry. David in particular isn’t one I have spent a lot of time with because he’s 3 and I spend most of my time with the babies, but he came to me for comfort anyway.

He knew I would love on him. So he sat in my lap as he cried and gently laid his head on me. I simply held him in my arms rocking back and forth praying silently over him as tears filled my eyes.

In that moment my heart broke. I felt so much love for him that it became overwhelming.

I prayed that God would speak life into him and comfort him, that little David could feel His love and God would just hold him in His embrace.

In response the Lord said “I am.”

Jesus was speaking life into David, comforting him, loving him, and holding him in His embrace because I was doing all of that. I was Jesus to him, and it was beautiful.
 
It brought me to my knees with tears filling my eyes because it couldn’t be more perfect. It’s humbling, and I’m so thankful the Lord is using me in this way. God DOES work for the good of those who love him, and thankfully he allows us to have special moments like this when we let him move and let him change our hearts.