Life after training camp has been emotionally tough.
I know that the purpose of my life has been spoken for and that each day from now to September 7th should be joy filled and full of excitement for I will be leaving on an adventure that many people could only ever dream of experiencing.
I know that I live a very blessed life chock full of beautiful things, generous friends and family, and all of the emotional and spiritual support a girl could ask for.
I know that I have it made when the most frustrating things to me include not getting enough sleep, not enjoying a cup of coffee everyday, driving a beat up car ( that works perfectly fine mind you…) , and not having the right shoes for an outfit.
I know that this year will break me, fill me, empty me, and transform me. I know that all of the things that I am hurting over will seem so trivial when I am looking at true need, pain, and loss right in the eyes. I know that what hurts right now is minimal compared to what others are facing in their lives, as I am just pained by heartache for the beautiful life that I am leaving behind.
I know all of these things, but it doesn't make goodbyes hurt any less.
