About a month ago my phone randomly stopped working. Although, I could care less over social media I was so upset that all my worship music would be gone. Month 4 (Guatemala) has been a great time in getting to serve in ways we hadn’t before but, also came with a lot of challenges. One of those being worship. I had so much frustration over not hearing music during my quiet time and it came with a price to pay. (Disconnection with God) As the days passed my frustration grew that God wasn’t teaching me anything thorough this. How wrong was I to ever think that me not having a phone was a mere coincidence! In all vulnerability and a moment of honesty I began disconnecting from God. I wasn’t spending time with Jesus because He was already enough. Instead I was using music the source to connect with God when music is just another way to worship Him. As our team debriefed over this past month and all that God intended to do with it we realized how much the Lord had interrupted us. Many of us were going through a weird funk where we just couldn’t hear from the Lord or had a lack of desire to be with Him. One of my teammates had prayed at the beginning of the month for God to interrupt us and that’s exactly what He did! It was a valuable lesson in not being content in the place we’re at. One month without my phone gave me the freedom to break old habits of constantly checking social media or what’s going on at home. Though it took one month to come to this conclusion, I’ve learned that worship isn’t just hearing a song during my quiet time, it’s bowing my head acknowledging my Savior. It’s being vulnerable with Him and giving Him everything I am. I wanted music as a tool to come to God when in fact, it’s just another modem to hear from God- not what I need to get to Him. He’s already living inside of me and I have everything because of that truth. I was able to fix my phone and have the opportunity to hear my worship music through one of my devices and appreciate it even more than before!
