I’m sitting in an internet cafe in Grenada, Nicaragua. We are all back together again and will leave for debrief tomorrow. After a ridiculously scary and potentially dangerous flight on a 30 seater plane yesterday, we have officially left Puerto Cabezas and close out yet another month.
Our time here in Nicaragua was awesome. We all loved it so much. It was really hard to say goodbye to the Nicaraguan guys we worked alongside of for a whole month. But I have learned on this trip how to let go and let God. We have one month to get in there and love people with everything we have, show them the truth through our lives, then head out to the next place knowing that God is the only true Harvester. I got to have some really good conversations in our last week there with a few of the guys, and I have complete peace that the Lord will take them the rest of the way. They are such sweet spirited people and once they come to know God, they become such incredible instruments in His hands. They are passionate and humble beyond what I have ever seen before. I plan to keep in touch with a specific few, and know it won’t be long until I’m celebrating with them as a sister in Christ.
So, that leaves us with two months left. How in the world did it go so fast? Months feel like weeks now. I am trying to fight the urge to grab hold of everyone and refuse to let go. The Lord has been speaking to me about accepting the ebb and flow of things and He is teaching me to live fully in each moment and not try to make them last longer than they should. Every minute I spend out here in the field with this group that has become my family makes me a better person and fills me with joy. If I stay in one moment too long, I will miss the next one.
With that said, we’re having a 4 day debrief starting tomorrow, then we’re off again, all in different teams and in different directions. I will be traveling with just a few other people, and we’ll be going wherever the Lord will lead! Seriously, we have no plans…just a limited budget which leaves us totally dependent on God for provision, and with no agenda other than to serve the Lord and the local people wherever our feet may land! Whatever that looks like, we are ready. We have to hear the Lord this month…He is our everything. Our Provider, our Guide, our Captain. How did I ever get to be this blessed? I am about to travel around Central America with a group of friends who love Jesus and who are determined to make a difference in the world, no matter the cost. I shake my head as I write this and realize that Jesus was so right: “He who finds his life will lose it, but he who loses his life for My sake will find it.” I’m finding it, and it’s changing absolutely everything.
