Earlier this month, God kept speaking to me about eyes.
Several people talked to me about God opening their physical eyes and healing
while everything I read spoke about God healing the blind. In a discussion with
one of my squad mates, she brought up an incredible point. She said that while
she prayed for physical healing in her eyes, that God delivered spiritual sight
unlike anything she’d ever experienced. As the month as continued, I’ve
continued to notice people talking about eyes, sight and blindness a LOT. So I
began praying for God to open my eyes more and more into the spiritual realm.
Healing, per say, into what was lost when Adam and Eve first sinned. Their eyes
were focused on God and all of His glory at the beginning. But when they ate
the apple, their eyes were taken off of Him and focused on the world around
them, themselves and what they could physically see.
So, I prayed for God to restore some of that in me…sight
into what He sees…sight into the things of Him…and understanding for the things
I may see.
God has delivered.
God has restored so much sight.
God has healed my blindness to the things outside of this
world.
God has given me a new perspective.
God has brought me to a new height that allows me to see so
much more than ever before.
After seeking God as a team for several days in prayer and
fasting, we saw immense breakthrough and freedom within our team, our squad and
in each one of us as individuals. For 3 days, we specifically prayed for
healing. We prayed for Diabetes to go and for complete restoration in my body.
I saw immediate healing in other physical ailments I had and fully expected
healing from my Diabetes. God began to really speak to me about so many
different areas of life and the plans that He has. He began to pour discernment
into me and a desire (well, much more than that…I couldn’t contain myself and
had to step into it because my whole body burned if I didn’t) for prayer and
intercession.
The day after the fast ended, Satan kicked it into high gear
in response to me. I know that He was clued into how God was working, revealing
things in me and pouring out so many gifts into me. Over the last 2 days, I
have struggled…and struggled…and struggled. Attacks have come from every
direction in every way.
Even with me continuing to take my insulin, my blood sugar
sky rockets in moments of intercession or spiritual attack. Under normal
circumstances when I’m not fighting spiritual things, it’s perfect. We met a
man yesterday who was possessed and he came after me first. As soon as it
happened, I started feeling terrible and when we got back to the house, my
blood sugar had gone from 91 to 396.
Today, I woke up to even more attacks. High blood sugar in
the morning even though I went to sleep with it perfect…a massive interruption
in the middle of worship that knocked my focus completely off of God…Even more
little things that slowly made me feel more and more bound with a heaviness
that I didn’t understand. As we walked out to do ministry, I began to
hyperventilate for no reason at all. I couldn’t catch my breath and this
enormous weight lay over my chest. I decided that it would be best to come back
and just pray. No use going out into the field in my weakened state where
attacks would be even stronger and fierce.
As soon as I sat down on my bed, the spiritual attack got
even more severe. Not once did I doubt God or see the intensity of the attack
as something that would overcome me. It was incredible to trust and believe
that God’s power was made perfect in that moment of my intense weakness against
the enemy. I realized that it wasn’t just an attack against me, but one against
our entire team. So I began to pray for on their behalf.
God began to give me visions of His presence with them and
myself. I saw this crazy intense whirlwind tunnel coming straight down from
Heaven and pouring onto our team. While darkness and demons attempted to break
through to touch the team, this whirlwind went everywhere we went and was so
strong that they couldn’t penetrate it. As soon as the whirlwind tunnel hit our
team, it spread out in every direction in waves that flowed over the entire
landscape. It was unquenchable, untouchable, as strong and deadly as a tornado,
powerful and completely surrounded us on all sides. It never, for a single
moment, lifted from our team or any individual teammate. I began to intercede
through the spiritual attack on my body and the visions God was showing me and,
through it, I began to see even more revelation from God.
I’ve never experienced so much attack, yet power fighting
back at the same time. Until today, I’ve never felt such a strong presence of
something that wasn’t from God while trusting completely in God’s power and
majesty over it. I’ve never seen such an intense vision of what God is doing in
our team and how His spirit is pouring out and overwhelming us. If the God of
the universe is pouring out that much of Him over and in us, the attacks are
going to come and they’re going to come hard.
But God’s power is that much stronger. I don’t think I’ll
ever forget what that whirlwind tunnel looks like that encompasses our team and
gives us power, authority and strength as we walk along and share Jesus with
the lost, dying and possessed.
I don’t know how God has worked in the ministry today
because the team is still out working. But if their ministry was anywhere near
as powerful as the attack and vision I got, I’m sure they’ll come back with
stories of deliverance from demons in people, healing of the blind and loosing
voices in the mute.
I’m no longer blind to the things that are happening in the
spiritual realm. It’s intense and it could be scary if I wasn’t certain that I
had God’s spirit with me at all times. But even this gives me more intensity
and passion in praising God! He’s fighting for us even now. His power goes
before us and moves things that we never could on our own. It’s not us that do
anything to bring about God’s healing or power. But it’s God Himself who pours
it out on us so that we can spread it throughout the world.
My eyes can see…and it is good.
