A few weeks ago, I posted a blog about my friends, Brenda and Kt. Brenda is pregnant with odds against her. BUT, we serve the God of hope and miracles.
Read this email that I just got from Brenda, AND THEN rejoice with her!!!
Our God is sooooo good!!!
God is so good. No, He’s awesome! There aren’t words to describe how awesome He is. Our specialist at Shands said there was a 100% chance our girl was going to be dead by week 22. We are officially at week 23, and she’s very much alive. We went for our heartbeat check today. I can feel her move everyday, giving God glory with each little kick. She is still with us, however, the doctor noticed something today. Usually her heartbeat is around 160 bpm, which is normal. Well, today it was 180 bpm, too high. That’s not good. It means her heart is having to work harder than it should, pointing again to the heart defect the doctor at Shands saw (like a narrowing of the aorta, in certian places). So, the doctor isn’t happy about that, but there’s nothing that can be done right now to correct it. So, she is not optimistic (it’s funny how we haven’t found a doctor yet that is).
Anyway, this doesn’t surprise me. I’ll tell you why. Last week God really convicted me. So far, I have been very careful to not get too excited about all the normal pregnancy stuff (baby showers, registering, ect. ). In fact, I never even talked like she would be here in September. It’s not that I didn’t believe God wasn’t or couldn’t heal her, I was just taking it one day at a time, sorta not getting too excited. God showed me a verse in James 2, talking about faith. If we say we beleive something, it should change how we talk and act. Well, I decided that I needed to do just that. So, for the first time, I allowed myself to get excited and I actually registered for a few things. I realized I didn’t have to keep reminding God to heal my baby, I’ve already prayed that, He hasn’t forgotten. I need to thank Him for it, and believe what I pray.
So, this week, i’m not surprised that Satan has tried to discourage and lie to me. Sure, it may get worse before it gets better, but I’m still hanging on to the faith that I know God will heal my little girl. When we know what Satan is up to, we can know how to fight back. So, I said “Satan, stuff it and stop telling me your lies” (sometimes you have to get firm with him, he tries to be pushy). So, I’m not down, not discouraged. If anything, my faith is more firm, more unmoving! So, please keep praying. I don’t know what the future holds. We have one more heartbeat check, in two weeks, then it’s back to Shands on the 19th. We’ll keep you posted. Thank you for your support and prayers. They really mean so much to us!
Love
Brenda
