I’ve made it safely to my last month of the Race! Can’t believe it! We’re in Puerto Barrios, Guatemala for the next 3 weeks and then off to Antigua for a week of final debrief before we fly home. I’d LOVE prayer as I finish this season out! It seems to get harder by the day 🙂 I’d love prayer for my heart posture as I transition back home to who knows what, that my heart would be FIXED on Papa, passionately in pursuit of Him, postured in gratefulness and saturated with humility. Thanks for praying with me. I feel desperate for it these days.
Here’s how I’ll sum up last month for me personally “Lessons Learned in Failing.” Whoa…. so many of them. I feel like I consistently missed the point. I’m thankful for grace in a way that I never have been before. I learned some rich lessons in loving and in forgiving that I wouldn’t trade for anything.
I learned that “community” is more about Papa being manifested through our love, forgiveness, grace, and encouragement poured out on the people we are around than it is about figuring exactly what each person, myself included, needs to do/stop doing to make “it” work.
I learned that there is NO point in entertaining negative thoughts about anyone, or situation. Papa is working for the good of those who love Him, bringing them up higher, more free, more of who they are in Christ, out of the bondage they’re sitting in. Focusing on the negative only works with the enemy and gives the liar ground in my heart to sow seeds of discord, to speak more lies, to discourage, and to destroy. He is a liar, he does not speak the truth about any of us. I WANT so badly to be a person who is a cheer leader for those around me. To truly be doing what Abba is doing, loving, speaking truth, calling into life. It’s NOT easy, I have to get over myself. I feel like I’ve been learning this one my whole life. I want raw compassion for the people around me, because that’s what our Dad has for each of us.
I learned in such an interesting way that I want to be a faithful steward of the passions and desires in my heart. When they’re from the Father they’re a gift. I don’t want my use of them to be dependent on the responses of the people around me. I don’t want to ignore my passion because I will be running after things by myself, I want to steward my heart well.
At the end of the day, what remains, and what will be burned away into nothing?
I want this question at the forefront of my mind. I propose love is the only thing that remains at the end of the day. Loving people with the love that Jesus has relentlessly given me. He’s beautiful, we need Him to be manifest around us through our love more than we need anything else.
I don’t want to be a hypocrite, I want to live what I believe and speak. That is a lesson from this month as well. 🙂
This is my team. pray for them as they transition home as well please!!!
They make me laugh, and teach me so much.
