4 years ago I sat in my sister’s living room, crying my eyes
out because I was leaving for Poland in a couple weeks and I was still in need
of a LOT of money. I knew I was called
to Poland but I had no clue where all of the money was going to come from. Everyone I knew had given me money and there
was nobody else to ask. I finally gave
it all over to G*d and let Him do His thing. By the time I boarded the airplane I was 100% funded. G*d
provided when I finally trusted that He would.
1 year ago I sat in that same living room, crying my eyes
out because a fundraiser I expected to bring in lots of money for the World
Race brought in only a fraction of what I thought. I knew G*d was going to provide the money I
needed but He wasn’t doing it the way I thought He would. I finally asked G*d to help me to stop
expecting Him to show up in my way and to start showing up in His way. By Christmas I was fully funded. Again, God
provided when I finally started trusting He would.
The beginning of this month I had trouble falling asleep, thinking
and worried about how I am going to get a job when I get home and how I am
going to afford a car. Do I purchase a
car without a job or do I wait until you have a job? How will I get to work if I don’t have a car
but how will I afford a car if I don’t have a job? Where will I work? What city will I live in? Who will hire someone who has been out of the
country for the past 11 months? I was reminded by my parents and sister that G*d is going to take care of me just like He’s done time and time again. My dad made a good point when he said, “You just spent 11 months serving Him…how can you think He’s not going to provide for you? If I were you I would be so excited to see what He is going to do!” Two
nights ago I had a really good talk with my great friend Kendra who reminded me to not feel bad asking G*d to provide for me. She told me how she asked G*d to provide her with a computer when she
needed one for college and He did…in His own perfect way. (7 years later that computer still works
great…she’s convinced it will never die because it’s “G*d’s computer”!) So I stopped feeling guilty about asking for
things that I need and just finally asked for them because I know G*d will provide for me…in His own way. This morning I woke up to find an email from
my sister saying I got a check from my insurance company for $467! And no, that’s not a job offer or a new car
but it’s G*d’s way of providing for me
when I finally stopped trying to do things my way and asked Him to do things
His way.
I am far from perfect and I’m sure there will be days when I’ll
worry about the future, wondering where on earth I will work or what I’m going
to do for a car but I hope and pr*y that I’ll be nudged back into trusting G*d
to do His thing. Trusting Him seems to
be a common lesson I learn and I doubt this will be the last time I learn it…it
is, however, a good reminder for me to
stop trying to do things my own way and to start letting G*d do things His own
perfect way.
