Rest. We all need
rest. When I am feeling crabby or sad,
on people overload or just not feeling myself more often than not I will blame
it on a lack of sleep. “I’m just tired”,
I tell myself. And while this may sometimes
be the case, I think there is another culprit…I have not allowed my soul to
rest in God.
did not want to get out of bed for the sole fact that I didn’t want to talk to
anyone. If you know me, you know that
that is not how I operate. When our team
met for morning prayer, I told them how I was feeling. When we were done praying, my friend (and
squad leader) Caroline, gave me a huge hug and told me to follow her. She filled up a bowl with yogurt and granola,
filled my mug with coffee, and brought me up to the 3rd story
balcony where she laid down her comforter, got me some pillows and instructed
me to have “Jesus time” until lunch.
As I sat down in the sun with my journal and a Bible I just
started praying. I opened up my Bible and
the first verse I read was,
“My
soul finds rest in God alone.” Psalm 62:1
That is what was missing.
I had not been spending time simply resting
in God. I have been spending time in
prayer and in scripture but I have not spent any time just being. Being still and listening to God, allowing Him
to pour his love into me. After a few
hours of “soul resting” I felt like a new person. Being with people no longer sounded awful…I
was back to being “normal Jenn”.
God has been teaching me a lot on this race…patience, grace,
what real beauty is, and now what it means to rest your soul. So this is another thing I am going to work
on. Spending time allowing my soul to
rest in God alone.
