You know that feeling you get when you have no idea what you’re doing and you constantly feel lost? That is where I feel I have been for the past few weeks. As if I and in the fog. Not sure what the next minute will look like or where I will even go or how will I get there. To be honest, I don’t like that feeling. But oh man, is it stretching me to “feel”. It’s not easy like it usually is, I’m not quite sure what to do with that.. But then I have days like today, where I meet beautiful people who make me feel again. Her name is Jacklie, and we meet over lunch. We have never previously meet before this day, but it felt as if I have known her for years. To hear her story, and her passion to expose the darkness in Asia. It lit a passion in me I cannot begin to put into words. I told her I believed in her, and I meant it. In that moment I felt again. In the moment of empowering people to do something they are passionate about. I didn’t have to mention the name of Jesus, but I know she left the table today feeling the love of Jesus through myself and my friends. In that moment of talking to a complete stranger and just share a laugh or a story.. I felt him, it was as if the fog had began to clear in that moment and I was able to see why it is I am here again. This is the beginning of month 7 and although I feel as if I am in a daze, it is moments like these that make it all worth it. I will continue to seek God, and be ready for days like today.
I apologize for how brief this is. But as I lay in my bed here in Malaysia at 12:47am, these are the thoughts that run across my mind. I have no words for what I feel, because I am not sure if I am feeling at all. But it is moments like these that bring me back to His faithfulness and remember His promises.
Please help me to continue to have more moments like these. In a few days is my final financial deadline. The day when I need to have the complete $16,255 in my WR account. As of right now, thanks to all of you, I am at $14,026 which leaves me with $2,229 left to raise. If you are able and feel led to give, it would be such a blessing. I know God is not done with me here in Asia.
To you, the person reading this.. Thank you for believing in me.
