As I write this, I am completely baffled at the circumstances of my life.
I’m in Thailand and it’s month 8 of the World Race.
How did I get here?
Last month I was in Cambodia – sweating like crazy, sleeping in my tent and teaching the most beautiful children English. But that’s not all that happened.
Besides getting hit in the head by a falling mango and taking bucket showers in the dark, I gained a new insight into my relationship with God.
For the past 2 months, at least, I have been walking around these countries feeling incomplete and honestly just wanting to go home. I was convinced that I didn’t desire God because I wasn’t spending that much time with Him. I felt like I was a bad Christian because I didn’t want to talk to God all that often.
And you know what I realized while lying in a hammock in a remote village in Cambodia?…
Those were lies.
The simple fact that I felt convicted about not spending time with God proves that I was, and am desiring more of God.
Walking around feeling like the race isn’t enough and like all these incredible things I’m doing still aren’t satisfying helped remind me that the only thing, the only One who will satisfy is God.
When I finally understood this, I literally laughed out loud in the hammock.
I had let the enemy beat me up and spin me around and believe that I wasn’t good enough at my relationship with my heavenly Father.
Well those lies are gone now and my relationship with God has changed tremendously in the past two weeks.
And now as I sit here in Thailand, I’m still sweating like in Cambodia, but I know that my relationship with God doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s but mine and that changes everything.
As I learn more about God, the more I want to spend time with Him and the more I spend time with God, the more I learn about Him.
Pretty sweet, right?
Thailand looks different than any other month on the race for me because I’m free.
Free from the lies. Free from the condemnation.
Free to live for and love Jesus like I never have before.
So, I’m finishing this race free, with six incredible women on a new team – so perfectly named ‘Uncaged’.
Live in the freedom that Jesus brings with His perfect love.
-J
