This last month has been filled with 9 different
countries, final debrief, a banquet, flying home and much more. It’s been an emotional
rollercoaster – but has brought me to this place that is inevitable.
countries, final debrief, a banquet, flying home and much more. It’s been an emotional
rollercoaster – but has brought me to this place that is inevitable.
I am no longer surrounded by 51 other people.
I am no longer wearing the same pair of jeans I have worn almost every day the last 6 months
I can eat what I want, when I want and however much I want
I slept in my own bed in my own room
I didn’t have to go to bed or wake up at a certain time
I washed my clothes in a washer and dryer…and needed my mom to help me program the machines
I have a full closet of clothes in my room that I do not know what to do with – choices people!
I could stick my head under the tap and drink the water without questioning whether it was safe to drink
The milk is cold…
I can take a LONG, hot bath!
These are just a few things the last 24 hours have brought.
I am alone – but do not feel alone. My parents are here. H Squad still remains behind me. God is with me. I have ended one season and am beginning another!
I am trying to come up with words to explain what it feels like to be at home with my parents rather than home being wherever I am for a few nights. I have cried, laughed and stood in wonder of all that this year has brought!
It is weird. Kinda surreal. This was one of those moments I forgot to think about before I left for the race. The leaving part. Saying good-bye. I am grateful for all this year has brought me, taught me and blessed me with. I am touched by the people I have met, lived with and grown to love.
I already miss the hugs, laughter, quirks and worship our Squad experienced – however, I am where I need to be, in a land that needs God, needs love, and needs to be free.
Already, so many emotions, questions and feelings have crossed my mind. I feel like everything is at a standstill…what to do and where to go is up to me…yet right now, I do not want to go anywhere or do anything. I just want to be. TO soak in the presence of Jesus. To continue to be romanced by Him and experience his love, goodness and faithfulness of this year!
You have walked this year with me. You have shed tears and laughter as you read blog after blog on what God has done in and through me…and the stories from the countless Countries I have been to. My journey does not end here. This was just the beginning – the initiation and launching pad for all that is to come!
I am resting. I am processing. I am blessed. I am, in Christ, a NEW CREATION!
