Through the Rain

 

This morning at staff devotions we were sent off to reflect on God and have quality time with Him. I must admit, I was distracted. I was not focussed. I wanted the time with Him. I needed the time with Him. Maybe it was feeling the “have to” rather than the “want to” that was standing in my way. Maybe it was the fact that the wind was cool, so I was cold, and therefore my mind and thoughts were elsewhere.

 

I was quiet. I was still. I was listening. I heard the waves hitting the shore behind me. I felt the breeze as it went by me. I tasted my coffee that was “waking” me up. No God. Don’t get me wrong, God was there. I just couldn’t feel His presence. It was frustrating. I was finally given the needed time to spend with Him, and I was lost. I had a wall up. I felt distant from the one person I needed and wanted to spend time with. I sat there. I read scripture. I journaled. I listened to music.

 

It was a great way to start the day – being quiet – even though I never heard God speak to me like I was hoping He would. The thing is, He did, just not the way I thought He would. Just not when I thought He would.

 

As the day progressed, the weather changed a million times. It was cold and rainy, then warm and sunny. Quite honestly, I have been frustrated with myself and my relationship with God lately. It’s been something I’ve been longing to restore, but with me having a lack of motivation with so much being sick and all, I just kept putting of spending quality time with My Best Friend.  One thing I thrived on while I was in  Maui, and even the Caribbean, was separating myself from everyone and everything, taking my camera, and just be. Random pictures. Alone. With God.  My heart and passion came to life. Since I got home, to camp, this hasn’t happened. I missed it. What was standing in my way, stopping me from these God times!?

 

Then it happened. It started to rain. Some people wanted to go inside. The rain was light, and it was glorious. Don’t you just love a warm rain!? I do…especially when God shows His beauty and creativity through it. I saw Him cover the camp with a rainbow. Not one, but two. Bright as can be. The colours were magnificent. The timing was perfect. This was for me. God was calling me – come to me. Relax. Be free. Put your worries aside and enjoy this moment. Spend time with me. The rain was cleansing. The rainbow was restoring! 

I was in awe. I couldn’t stop smiling. I was surrounded by His love, His grace and His beauty. All I could do was stand there and praise God. The pictures I took can’t capture the feelings that swept over me. I was restored.

 

God moments. Take time for the blessings that come your way, no matter how big or how small. He wants you to spend time with Him. For me, it was through a rainbow, horses and a canola field.

It was taking a step back and releasing it all in order to grasp a hold of what He has for me. He has me right where He wants me…am I going to listen and follow!?

 

Ezekiel 1:27b-28

“…there was a radiance around Him. As the appearance of the rainbow
in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding
radiance. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD And when I saw it, I fell on my face and heard a voice speaking.”