You know that feeling you have after an awesome week at church camp?When you come back on fire for the Lord!? It’s as though you could say “no” to every temptation without hesitating, you could go reach out to all the friends that you always wanted to, but didn’t have the courage until after church camp!?
That’s how I felt after month 3, times 10!
Recently
The Lord has been teaching me about spiritual endurance.
I see now that I had none. Running a race takes so much endurance, and building endurance takes perseverance and patience. After month 3 I felt so on fire for the Lord. He had been walking me through so much. I gained what seemed to be 5 years of growth in 3 short months. Month 4 He walked me through some brokenness. He broke off some past hurts and things I didn’t even realize I was still holding onto. Then month 5 came around…
Month 5 was hard. I was called into a new roll of leadership and couldn’t be more excited, yet more scared in my life.
I was excited because I knew the Lord was going to equip me in ways that Ive never experienced. I began to anticipate the growth I would start to go through, ways I would be stretched and be surprised in how the Lord proved to be so faithful. However, my month started out so dry. “Why now?” I prayed. “Now, when I need you most, you decide to be quiet?”
It took me the entire month to see that He was teaching me endurance. He’s given me the growth and the strength that I need to endure, but even when He seems far away and things get hard am I still going to strive to depend on Him? Sadly, I didn’t do my best at still seeking Him out each morning like I had been when I felt Him so near. I found myself slacking and slowing down in the growth of our relationship.
Coming into month 6, I see that He doesn’t want to spoon feed me like He was in the first three months. He is wanting me to “stand on my own” but seek to walk with Him. He has shown me who He has created me to be and He wants me to have the confidence in the strength and gifting’s He’s blessed me with. He wants me to seek Him out and build endurance in this time that feels to be such a struggle because I have to be more intentional with Him. I need to learn to sit in the quiet even when I don’t want to, and wait to hear His voice. I need to push through the early mornings that are hard to get out of bed because this life away from home (Heaven) is wearing on me, and spend the morning with Him.
The Lord is steadfast!
Definition of steadfast::
very devoted or loyal to a person, belief, or cause : not changing
The truth is, the Lord is unchanging. He is just as close to me today as He was month 1. He has remained steadfast and faithful in our relationship and wants me to do the same. To endure the harder times and remain steadfast and faithful to Him.
“His love endures forever!”
Does mine?
