Being in Georgia since committing to CGA,there has been constant confirmation I’am exactly where I need to be. I can’t help but be honest and say I was scared shitless! Even after making this big decision,and moving 12 hours away days later ,I still was hesitant! There were doubts that flooded my head in the process, emotions that left me feeling in denial with how sudden everything seemed.
But I was reminded by my Heavenly Father I said YES for a reason! I committed to this plan he laid in front of me for a purpose,it wasn’t chance,it wasn’t because I was bored! It’s because I know and trust what he has for me is far better for me than I could dream up of on my own! Regardless of the unsettled emotions,doubts and fears, I know he told me this is what he wants for me! My role was simple and extremely hard all at once, to LISTEN! To listen when I had no idea how I could afford to live off my income, to listen when I didn’t feel supported in this decision and to still listen when my nature was disappointed my plans were different at first!
There are times when we listen to our Heavenly Father we feel like we’re being asked to do the impossible …like walk on water! At times we are being asked to walk on water…something totally foreign and out of our understanding. It’s how we respond that is our choice! We can take a leap on the water like Peter and start to walk..yea peter sank.( Matt 14:28)He listened but doubted because he watched the winds blowing! But he left the boat, what if he just sat in the boat and wouldn’t have listened..he would have missed that amazing miracle all together. Yes,we may not walk perfectly at first, but as we’re listening and focusing on him were in the midst of a miracle we can’t get back!
This opportunity that was presented to me is nothing short of a miracle and I’m honored to be part of CGA and the India team launching in January. I honestly could not have planned this out any better than how perfect everything aligned the way it did. My team, my classes,housemates,and my apprenticeship is exactly what I need! Will it be easy..definitely not!The more I walk through this season the more I see how I’m truly in the midst of something amazing and feel so taken care of by my Heavenly Father. I can see I need to keep listening,keep saying yes and focus on the father.To think I could have easily not listened would have robbed myself from all he wants to show me in this time of my life. So..is there something you need to say Yes to,but your hesitating because it makes no sense? Allow yourself to truly Listen and hear where your father in heaven wants to take you..it could be a miracle in the making just for you!
