Okay. I have written a blog 3 times in the past 2 days. There are a lot of things on my heart that I have wanted to share but just haven’t had the words.
I have been a Christian for almost 10 years and as I sat here on Thanksgiving morning, I was well aware that Jesus has been trying to get my attention all morning. You know that whole thing where the sheep know their Shepherd’s voice? Yeah, well, He’s been really vocal all morning.
I going to be a little vulnerable for a minute. I am not perfect. Not even close. I would go so far as to say I am the least perfect/worthy person I know to receive God’s love/favor. In fact, I’ve actually struggled with that thought for years, to the point of complete self deprecation.
You see, when you love somebody but you’re sure they don’t love you back, you don’t really tell people you love them.
what if they find out?! they would laugh in my face.
So you don’t say anything to protect your own self. That’s how I felt out Jesus for a long time. Why would I tell anybody about Him if I wasn’t sure He loved me back?
A couple of weeks ago, I came to a point where living in that thinking was no longer an option. God had brought me to the end of myself. I could no longer continue on my own strength, so I gave up. You can’t think or live like that in real life let alone the World Race. I let Him fill in the void of identity in me that said I didn’t belong in His family, that there was no place for me in His heart, and that my life was less than ideal. Then He pushed me on a fast track to reality in His Kingdom. I see things, people and situations from His point of view instead of my tiny one.
You see, He is making all things new. He’s making us new. He loves us, fam.
I hope that you find peace and love and good food on this holiday!
xoxo,
Ness
P.s. if you want to join me and Jesus on this Race, theres a link to your left that says support me. Click on it! 
P.p.s. I guess this kind of was a Thanksgiving post. 
