Suddenly I realized how good this change was for me. I realized Manistry month is what I needed. A month with just dudes. A month where I am living with my ministry. A month where I feel like I am being constantly poured into and I am constantly pouring out, as it should be.
I have less fear of being vulnerable, if any. There’s been a switch in my brain. I feel like I can honestly say what I need to and not feel judged, not that I was judged before. But it was a feeling I had, completely valid even if it wasn’t really the situation. I am not discrediting the last few months of the race by any means. They were good. They were hard and full of different kind of growth. They were also full of more heart hardening than I had hoped. I did love them and there were good times, but I’m saying this is the best I’ve felt the whole race.
In all honesty I don’t doubt myself, while we’ve been here. I don’t feel like I’ve been torn down ever. I also don’t feel like I’ve torn anyone down. It’s been an extremely healthy environment. Looking back I don’t know why I was reluctant to want to be here. I am here in love with ministry and so on fire for growth.
Our ministry is living in the Children’s Garden of Antipolo with the boys whose ages range from 12-18. I have loved every minute of it. These boys love like no other. They rough house and they play games. When it comes time for worship and bible study they are there and attentive.
An environment that is conducive to growth. Conducive to a healthy spirit.
I have not felt stagnant. I have not felt a desire to go home. I feel good.
I still would love prayers for growth. I also feel like it’s probably about time I start thinking about my future. If you guys would keep me in your prayers for God to give me some kind of guidance.
This month I’m going to try to write a blog a week! Just to keep you guys updated on all that’s going on and everything God is teaching me. Thanks for all your support. Grace and peace be with you!
