I am a missionary. I am a missionary and I have experienced the call of God. I have experienced satan’s attack. Today I am a missionary and I am ready to go into the world and profess His love from the top of my lungs. Today I am a missionary and I am ready to talk to my neighbors and friends about Jesus. I am ready to do anything and everything God wants me to do. Even in the struggles of today I am ready! I will do the will of God. I know that some days I will get sad, I’ll get nostalgic, but I know that God puts me in every situation for a reason!
I was experiencing a drought. I was trying to do things through my own strength and I was sad. I wasn’t able to do the Lords work in the full capacity that he wanted. I wasn’t able to care for people the way I should have. I was dry. I was cracked.
Like in the desert, When there’s a drought in the more clay rich parts of the ground, it cracks. The same goes for us. If we are not fully embracing the spirit of God we will crack. If we aren’t drenching ourselves in him we’ll dry up. God’s word is so amazing. God’s love is so amazing. I was reading my devotional and I realized one reason I love Psalms so much. David a man after Gods own heart had struggles and he faltered. I thought to myself he’s king David and I’m just me of course there’s going to be struggles. “Create a pure heart in me, O God, and put a new and loyal spirit in me.” Psalm 51:10. Psalms like this at times are my prayer. They give me hope that God is driving my spirit. He is the Father I need, the guidance that cannot come from man.
Yesterday I was driving home from my best friends house, when suddenly I just felt so peaceful and a thought ran through my mind “I am a missionary”. I was overwhelmed with joy. I was overwhelmed with God. It was the most random God moment I’ve ever had. I could not stop smiling the whole way home. It was a beautiful moment. Speaking of beauty this New Year’s Eve I went camping with my best friend and a group of others. Everyone there was so welcoming and friendly it was wonderful. When you’re camping you’re away from society you have so much time for you and God. While we were on a rzr ride there was this wash and it has so many rocks and they were ,to put it simply, beautiful. God just showed me his beauty. He showed me that even in the rocks his beauty is present. Everywhere you look you can find his beauty. In Families, in friendships, and in nature. His presence and his beauty is so prevalent. Taking a step back and finally basking in him is exactly what I needed.
God rejuvenates. I have experienced it first hand. This doesn’t mean that I won’t get sad or that I won’t be bothered with troubles anymore. Those things are still going to happen but God gives me unending joy in those situations. God is so much bigger than any problem I have. He’s So much bigger than fundraising. He’s so much bigger than me. Through Him anything is possible and I know that I can accomplish anything he’s called me to. He tells us to take heart because he has overcome the world. He has overcome all our problems, all our struggles, and all our anxieties. He is big.
