This is what my past month in Thailand has looked like- one of rest and preparation. When we got to our ministry site in Chiang Mai I was really struggling with what God wanted me to do this month. Before Christmas I went to the bars a few times but mostly stayed at the coffee shop and talked with some of the girls who worked there and prayed, etc. until it closed each night. Then after Christmas God really spoke into what His plans were for me. I had mentioned my struggle to Katie one afternoon and she mentioned that maybe this was not that much about the ministry but more about going deeper and growing in intimacy with God. One morning on our way to help open up the coffee shop, I was really struggling with why in the world I was at this ministry site- I did not feel a tug either way (to stay back at the coffee shop during the night or go to the bars)- I was fine either way. So I had two of the girls from Team 180 (Melina and Justine) pray with me about what was going on. It was then that God really spoke about my ministry this month. God basically confirmed what Katie had told me. He spoke through them about this month being a time of rest and Him preparing me for what is ahead. Also that this is a time when He just wants me to be still and listen for His voice- for Him to truly tell me who I am in Him and have me really get and believe my identity in Christ. I was so amazed at how all the pieces started to fall together from the past couple months!
w I had believed this lies for so long that I could no longer hear His voice about who I am in Him. Then in Thailand God wrote me a love letter J and then with the vision He gave Melina and Justine it just all fit together! God will not relent until He has all of me- my heart and everything else! He is pursuing me like no other and is romancing me in ways that only He can! I have never been pursued by anyone and to have the God of the universe pursuing me just amazes me! I have never felt God’s love like I have these past couple months and I am so excited for what these next couple months will look like! All I know is that I am in a season of rest and preparation and that God is going to continue to speak life and truth into me about who I am in Him!
ecognize when God is speaking to me and be able to discern what He is saying. Also be praying that my eyes will be opened to see how God is all around me and going after my heart! I have no idea how long this season is going to last for or what He is preparing me to do, but just be praying for patience on waiting for God’s timing.
As someone once told me- Jesus did what He did because H e knew who He was.
