These past few weeks have been emotional, emotional and emotional…
As I watch all of my friends move in together, fill out their planners, and go to class, I began to think about the next 9 months of my life.
I have no idea where I will be staying, how I will be living, or what a day to day will look like. I don’t have a house, I definitely don’t have a planner, and I don’t have an idea of what I will being doing every day. I have felt every emotion from joy to sadness, comfort to loneliness, excitement to bitterness, and many, many more. I wake up with the entire day ahead of me, to do all the things that needs to be done, yet I’m overwhelmed with time.
But honestly, I have no fear. I’m not nervous to leave or afraid to be in these countries. I’m not scared of the mystery or not having a plan. I’m overjoyed to be traveling the world, leaving the comfort I’ve always known, and sharing my Jesus to those who have never had the chance to know Him. I’m excited to see the people, cultures, and beauty I have never seen before. I’m ready to learn, grow, and be tested. I’m ready to have God change my life over and over again.
I know that the enemy is attacking me through my emotions. I know that I have fallen due to my emotions. But I also know that my God is much more powerful and He is calling me to step up even higher than I fell, and lead me to places I couldn’t go by myself. Our God is the ultimate comforter, a loving Father, and a best friend. He knows exactly what I will be doing. He has a plan for me, for you, and for the people who don’t even know Him yet.
I leave my family, my friends, and my life in 8 short days and head to the unknown. I still have money to raise, a bag to pack, and goodbyes to be said.
But I am ready.
