Deliverance…..walking people through freedom…what is that exactly? This was my exact question almost 2 months ago when we were in our first village in India. One of our squad leaders was with our team and she talked about it. I was skeptical, I doubted a lot. I immediately thought “yeah that’s not for me.” After many days of thinking about it, doubting it and wondering if this is real and something I needed to do, I decided that my last night in Nepal I would go through a deliverance.
The day finally came. It started off with me going to the hospital to pick up my passport. I was in the hospital about a week prior. I left my passport there as a form of guarantee payment. I was waiting on the insurance…but I mean when in America are we NOT waiting on the insurance to do their part. I had gone the previous night and spent three hours trying to get things figured out so that I could have my passport because we fly out to Vietnam tomorrow.
We got back and had a squad meeting to discuss the following month and the travel day process. Then I got my hair washed by one of my sweet loving squad mates. After that I played the waiting game for 2pm to come around so we could go have a settlers of Catan party at the local coffee shop.
While playing Catan I felt my body slowly start to ache all over. At first I couldn’t figure out what was going on and then I knew I was being attacked by 5atan. Spiritual warfare is something that is real and has been heavy on the race so far.
After the coffee shop closed we walked around finding snacks for the airport. It was a good time of fun and laughter with a squad mate that has become like a sister to me. I love our friendship and how she speaks truth to me.
Time slowly ticked by. It was finally time. I had one of my squad leaders doing the deliverance. We went up to the roof. It was weird how much warmer or felt on the roof than it did on the house; granted we did have blankets wrapped around us. I also had two squad mates praying for me while this was going on.
I prayed a prayer of surrender and things got started. (I am going to be fairly open and vulnerable in this next part). She started with a series of questions.
1. Is Je5us Chr1st Lord? Yes
2. Can anything else save us? No
3. What are you here for? Distraction
4. Do you love Janet? No
5. What is your name? N/a asked again and heard 3 things but could only make out 2 fear and doubt
6. What grounds do you have? N/a asked again- sexual abuse.
7. What does that mean to you? I have been abused 3 times.
8. What will counteract that? N/a
9. Do you believe in a good man that will love you and be compassionate and patient when it comes to walking through the abuse? I hope for it, but I don’t believe it.
10. Sp1it of fear do you have grounds to be here? N/a asked again- no
11. Is this truth before papa ? Yes
12. I command you to go where the Father sends you. Gone- I felt pain leave from my neck.
13. Spirit of doubt what are the grounds you have to be here? -unworthiness. I felt unworthy and it was rooted in what my foster dad told me 17 years ago..that at the age of 13 no one would want me or want to adopt me so I should take my name of the adoption list. I felt because I was a foster child I would be damaged goods and was unworthy of Papa’s love and grace.
14. What does Je5us say? Psalms 139:1-4 and 139:13-15 . I quoted the first 4 verses but she was trying to get to the point of being fearfully and wonderfully made.
15. Will you chose to believe the spirit of doubt or what papa says? Papa
16. Spirit of doubt do you have grounds to be here? Insecurity
17. What does that mean to you? Not secure as a daughter of Papa not trusting my self image.
18. Spirit of doubt do you have any grounds to be here? No
19. Do you have a leader in Janet? Loudly shouting ” I am the leader”
20. Do you have any spirits under you? No
21. Is this truth before Papa? Yes
22. I command you, doubt, to go where Je5us sends you. I felt pain in my arms release.
She asked the beginning questions once again and I answered them all correctly as for who is Father and that the only sp1rit left in me was the Holy sp1rit whose purpose is to love.
We then read Matthew 4:11 that states “Then the devil left him, and behold, angels came and were ministering to him.” Back in Indo when I first started learning about deliverances this is a verse that was part of my reading plan that week. I read it and immediately thought it was very well designed for deliverances.
We then prayed and asked the Holy Spir1t to then minister to me. These are the words I heard…
1. You are loved
2. You are beautiful
3. You are gracious
4. Tender hearted but strong
5. You are restored and made pure
6. Testament to Papa’s love
Right after this I felt and saw Jesus giving me and hug. I said..”Je5us just hugged me.. it was weird but cool”.
I am choosing to leave behind the fear, doubt , and insecurities and choosing to walk in freedom!!
***some words are changed and have numbers so that things can’t be searched. Because of my location I can’t use certain words and we have to be more careful here.
