First off – I have sooooo many pictures that I want to add to this but the internet is too slow to add them so my blogs might be a bit boring for a while!
I have a disease…. BUSYNESS! Anyone who knows me, knows that I’m a busy person. My brain never turns off. I ALWAYS have a to do list. I try to take naps but I can’t because I always feel like there’s something more important I should be doing. My brain literally does not shut off unless I’m sleeping.
Well, it turns out that I measure my self-worth through performance and productivity. I take pride in being self-accomplished. My success comes through working hard. If I want something, I work for it. Being handed things equals failure.
I was taught to define my life by productivity and performance. In a sense, as Americans we all were. This was a great trait when I was in school because I worked hard for good grades and even better characteristic in my real life job because it helped me excel and get promoted.
It’s mentally, physically, and spiritually exhausting to define your life through performance and productivity.
“ For it is by grace you have been save, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Jesus Christ to do good works, for which God prepared us in advance to do.” Ephesians 2:1-10
The realization is that God doesn’t require us to do anything to receive His love. There’s no to do list to receive God’s love – He simply just loves us.
God doesn’t measure my performance and productivity. I can serve, serve, and serve but I’ll never reach the level of intimacy I desire from Him. Only when I stop thinking of my time with Him as a checklist and start to truly pursue Him, will he start to reveal my identity through Christ.
