In our world and culture today it is so easy to rely on anything and anyone else but God. And that is kind of what I have done in the past. With money, decisions, and experiences, I have not relied on God for everything. But with the World Race it is different. As I am reading facebook statuses about my squad mates getting huge donations out of nowhere, it makes me happy for them and sad for me. Knowing I am only at $1,600. And I keep wondering when my ‘big’ donation will come around.
But I don’t think it is about the fact that I get a ‘big’ donation, but rather I just want to see God do something amazing for my trip. But because I am expecting it, God won’t do it because he wants to make sure my heart and faith are in the right place. And I know God will provide. I trust him. I mean I guess I already saw it when I somehow ended up with my $150 initial deposit, when I only thought I was going to make $50. But for some reason I feel it is not the same.
Even though I am having doubts. I know God has called me on this race. And he will provide in his timing. And maybe I won’t have some amazingly huge donation from an unknown person. Maybe God will make it go to where I am still fundraising while on the field, and I make it barely before the 100% deadline in December 2011. Who knows. What is important is that my faith and trust in God is not shaken. That I still trust Him with my life on this trip and know that no matter how I get my money, that I will get my money somehow.
Please keep me and my donators and fundraising ideas in your prayers. That God will bless them and that I will be able to raise all the money needed to serve God for these 11 months.
