Im sitting in a Starbucks in down town Helena, eating an everything bagel and writing this blog. Im in a city that I don’t know, surrounded by strangers. Im watching other women have breakfast with their friends, old men telling each other stories and making the occasional accidental awkward eye contact with someone across the room. I am alone yet completely filled with Joy.
I thought this was going to be extremely hard. I thought that moving across the country, away from your family and friends(with the exception of my parents) was going to be excruciating. I thought that the minute I got in the car to drive away from my home town I would break down in tears and cry the entire 20 hour drive here. I didn’t. Not a single tear fell. Now this doesn’t mean that I don’t miss my friends and family like crazy! Because I do, they are amazing. Im just saying that God has given me peace though it. He has shown me so much joy in all of it.
I will admit that the first couple of days of unpacking I wanted to kill my parents. Everything they did made me want to scream at them! And I didn’t know why. Now looking back on those days I realized I wasn’t setting aside time for God, I wasn’t doing my daily quiet time and I wasn’t praying. I was only focused on what I had to get done that day, how much time I had to do it, and how “annoying” my parents were being. I was separating myself from God and it was showing in everything I did. But lovingly he revealed this to me so I refocused, set aside time for just me and God and now here and I am writing this blog telling you about the joy God has blessed me with.
I am so extremely thankful for times like these. I saw moving as just another town that was too far from home and far too cold. But God saw as something much more. He saw it as an opportunity for me to grow closer to him. I don’t have the distractions of friends or school or a job and that is ok. This is exactly where God wants me, with him. I am surprised by how much I am enjoying my time alone.
I am able to find joy in just watching people pass by. Seeing them with their families and friends or simply by themselves. I can’t help but smile every time I look out my window and see Gods beautiful masterpiece called Montana. I never thought that I could be so happy so far from home. But that is God for you! he works in the most mysterious ways. He shows up where you wouldn’t expect him and when he does, he bring so much joy and love with him.
Update!!! I currently have 9,370 dollars in my account and I am so extremely thankful to all who gave and are praying! Sometimes I forget how insane all of this is! In a matter of 4 months various people some close and some only acquaintances have donated over 9,000 dollars. I tend to forget how big God really is and that this is a true miracle. I also recently learned that my church has agreed to donate 600 dollars! Bringing me to just under 10,000! That is amazing! Please remember that I still need a total of 12,488 in my account by august 18th! I also need to buy gear that I will be using on this trip and a plane ticket to training camp and launch. If you’d like to donate to me to help pay for those you can email me! ([email protected]) Otherwise you can donate to my account at the top of this page! All donations and prayers are greatly appreciated! Thank you for taking the time to read my blog! please share to help get the word out:)Thank you again for EVERYTHING!!!
