God has such a great sense of humor. It is like you worry and worry about your piece of junk car breaking down and then someone gives you a newer car. It`s like finding a twenty in your pocket after you gave someone your last amount for the month. It`s like worrying about what you will do on the island in Nicaragua and God says just be.
Last article saw me fretting over how I could do and do and like Martha, Jesus said calmly and gently to me, just be. Just enjoy me and I will show you. So as we met with the leaders of a local church, the orphanage seemed to be less the priority that we had thought it would be and the church more. Our nights are pretty much all planned out with outreaches and dramas and cell groups, but it is not us who is doing it all. The church has used our presence somehow to rally the troops and gather all the members to do outreach in nearby communities. Last night, for example, we went with a group of about 60 people and just went door to door, inviting people to an event that will take place on Thursday night, praying with them, praying for them. It had little to do with us and everything to do with the church taking that community in the name of Jesus. We felt useless because our Spanish is so limited, but even our prayers were heard and welcomed. Sarah and I went with the pastor and he kept trying to get me to use my Spanish to share with others. I laughed and was able to get out my ¨Hola, como estan Uds?¨ and that was about it. But at the end I was able to pray in English for one of the families. However, that just means that I start off and everyone prays at the same time out loud and then you kind of pray as long as you feel it and then close everyone up. Weird, but awesome when you hear your brothers and sisters coming alongside you in petition for th hearts of others. I love it!
So all that to say, God has a purpose for us here. I have really struggled with my role in all of this since I am not a preacher nor an evangelist. But my value is not any less. My levels of comfort will be challenged defintely, but I will not back down. I just thank God that He knows what He was doing putting me on this Race with all my strengths and fears and joys and dramas. I am His son. That is who I am and that is who He has called me to be, so I will be that to the nations the best way I know how. I have learned that missionaries are many things to many peoples, but one thing we are for certain, sons and daughters of the High King. I pray that others would step into that role back in the states and that these kids would see that as well.
