I know I categorized this blog as the ‘worst entry ever’ but I’m reconsidering that statement. I believe this blog may take the cake.
This one is gonna hurt a little.
It’s hard and uncomfortable enough just reading it by myself but now I’m gonna post it?
I really don’t want to post it, which is why I’ve been sitting here for the last 53 minutes trying to talk myself out of it.
It’s embarrassing!
So here it is… have you ever felt so ready for a particular opportunity, promotion, relationship, season, etc. and it didn’t happen? I mean…so ready that it makes you put 10 o’s behind it (i.e. I’m soooooooooo ready)! I would’ve said 20 o’s but you get the point.
I know I have. But I also had something else…it’s called immaturity.
I wasn’t (still am in some ways) just a proud fool but I obviously didn’t get it. I was a dreamer who completely missed the point.
You see, I believe there’s a reason God doesn’t use us in our own timing. Sometimes it’s because we’re immature and we don’t get it. The worst part is, we don’t know that we don’t get it. And we’re clueless about being clueless.
So we get frustrated.
Why isn’t God answering my prayers?
Why do I feel so lonely?
Why do I not have any money?
Why hasn’t He done what He promised?
Why haven’t I met “the one” yet?
Why am I not living my dreams yet?
Why am I stuck going in circles?
I’ll tell you why. You’re not ready.
You aren’t. God still has some work to do in your heart. So God says wait.
Not no, but WAIT.
My parents told me to wait ALL THE TIME! I never understood why I couldn’t do certain things that my friends were doing. I thought they wanted me to be unhappy, but in all reality, it was exactly what I needed.
I tried to manipulate situations and details of stories so I could get my way. I wanted things my way and on my own timeline. It didn’t matter who thought otherwise.
Sounds like a personality of a boy in 5th grade and everyone calls him “jerk-face”, right?
I thank God for not using me in 2000. Or in 2005. Or 2008. Or for many more years.
I, literally, thank God that He did not answer my prayers or give me certain opportunities.
Can you imagine what a disaster that would have been?
Hindsight is in fact 20/20, which is why I don’t expect some of you to understand this post if God is currently saying “wait” to you. I don’t expect you to get or appreciate it but it’s okay because someday you’ll look back and say “thank you God for not saying yes.”
Because who we are is way more important than what we do, God is not in a hurry to say yes.
I want to hear your thoughts…
What are you waiting for? What’s something you have now but had to wait for? And what do you think about waiting in general?
