So I’ve been here at the Life Homes for a few weeks now and I gotta say I’m pretty much settled in. The schedule is down, I’m friends with all the boys, and I’ve been hard at work helping out where I can. But this has been a month of me starting to embrace the things that God has given me. I am learning how to speak and prophecy into people’s lives, I’m learning what real love actually looks like, and I’m starting to embrace the creativity that God has put in me. This month has just flown by with so many stories and memories. I only have a week left here. Crazy I know. But so far God has been speaking into me in so many ways. So I want to share something that I have been writing in my journal over the last few days. It tells of what I’ve been dealing with in my own heart these last few days.
I see You. But do You see me?
This cliff is so steep, that I backslide on.
I start the skid down. Convinced You’ve forsaken me.
Weary, I dig deep and claw my way up. Only to slide further away.
A little gain. But a lot more loss.
This pain can’t be worth. The price I pay.
I’m desperate now. I cling to the edge.
I look up and seek Your face.
There You are. I see You.
Looking right at me.
I finally realize. You’ve always seen me.
All along it was I that couldn’t see You.
Now inside I’m trembling. I see Your Light.
It sears my eyes. Yet I can’t look away.
Your Glory Blinds me. And binds me.
It pulls me closer to You.
And draws You deeper into me.
Just like a thief the night, You stole my heart.
I put up a fight, but You stayed with me.
Now my heart is Yours.
And I love you for taking it.
So, in short I’m slowly learning to embrace what God wants to say to me and through me. And I'm loving every minute of it.
