Month nine is wrapped up.. I can hardly believe it.
When we arrived in Honduras our host sat us down at our first meeting and asked us,
“What do you want to do?”
We were all thrown off and literally looked around at each other speechless, not knowing how to respond. He proceeded to tell us that this month, he wanted us to serve in areas we were passionate in. He wanted us to help where we wanted to help, and step back in areas we didn’t.
(I’m sure through this blog you can guess where I was passionate.)
After eight straight months, before we arrived here and was given this option. We were told exactly where to be, what to do, who to be with, and most of the time exactly how to do it.
This wasn’t a surprise to us because it’s exactly what we signed up for:
To serve in whatever way was needed.
As month nine comes to a close, I have been applying this question to my life after the race itself comes to a close.
What DO I want to do?
My job will have been serving wherever I am told for the last eleven months, by the time I come home. And while I’m still not a selfless person by any means. I find it difficult to think about what I want to do upon my return home.
This month it was a breath of fresh air being asked what I wanted to do and what I was passionate about. And I am taking this month, that was a gift from God, and am trying to apply it to coming home.
It’s still not all about me and what I want.
It never should be.
But God wants to give us the desires of our heart.
& in two months I have the freedom to seek those out.
Please bare with me as I am adjusting back to being home and all the decisions that come along with it. I am trying to prepare myself ahead of time so I hopefully won’t be too out of whack.
As much as it is still the same Jaide coming home, there is a whole new side of me that will need to figure out how to live and thrive, and yet not compromise my new nature when it collides with America.
Eight weeks until the collision happens.
Prayers for a smooth adjustment and a clear path is greatly appreciated.
