Ok ok! So I have an awesome story! I was REALLY kind of discouraged yesterday. I was living this epic and incredible life in Dallas for the last six weeks or so, made a ton of new friends, and fell in love with the people and place but I KNEW God kept telling me “Go to Seattle…”
Anyways it was kind of hard to obey because in my humanity I thought “But I can do so much good here in Texas!” So yesterday I was jobless, carless, and like things to do in the afternoon other than feed the catsless. So far NO ONE has supported me. Deep down inside I normally have faith but sometimes I’m thinking “Ok, if I sell this, and work hunting crab or something I can make just enough gold and silver to barter my way out of America.” So a friend I’ve gotten to know over the last few years or so tells me he wants to meet and talk about supporting me. I prayed before the meeting and said “God, I need help.” and it was almost like half-hearted prayer. Like “God I know You do big things but just throw me like a nickel here and I can at least pretend people want to support me. I thought most people would at least pay a dollar to get me deported to another country.”
I’m mostly only good for breaking up cat fights…
So this friend and I both go out to dinner. We talk about life. Love. Love life. Of which I currently can have none until August 2014 so I mostly just talked about like “Remember that time that one person went crazy who I was gonna marry?” and nodded along. Then came the question where I am always so nervous to respond “So let’s talk about support. How much do you need.”
I always get nervous at this point. Saying 15,350$ is kind of like saying “I need all the tea in China. And trust me it’ll make sense in the end.” Nooooooot everybody “Gets it.”
So I told my ol’ pal Mcfriend, “I need 15,350$ so far for the whole trip but I have a couple of milestones and am hoping to raise 3500$ as my first one and then I think 7000$ before I leave the country. I can raise money while I’m on the field…”
At this point he has taken his glasses off and is looking at me. Almost as if he has checked out. In my head which I call my mind I am thinking “Oh man. Oh man. EJECT! EJECT!!!!” and then he says briefly summarized…
“A second before you said 3500$ I had a number in my head. 3500. It just seemed like the right amount and to hear you say that. God totally confirmed it. So I will make a donation of 3500$ to your trip before June.”
I couldn’t stop grinning like I was ten and a new Pokemon game came out. Like I was blown away. Not only do I have the most AMAZING friends in the world but God is soooooooo amazing. So anyways, long story short. I’m not discouraged anymore. I think often…
Upon that story of that city Jericho. How on day six it must have been so easy to think.
“Yo God dude, were been blowing our horns for sumthin’ like six days now! Why you no destroy?”
Imagine if the Israelites had quit, ya know? Yet one more day and they had one of the most amazing experiences and stories ever. Life is like that sometimes. We are asked to wait and in our waiting we worry, doubt, second guess, triple guess, cha cha guess. We hope that we can control or at least minimize damage. Yet God is always over us and beyond us like the big heavenly awesome sauce in the sky that He is ready to blow our fragile little minds. We just need to stand fast… hold on… keep the faith! I’m so glad He shows us little miracles day after day. All of a sudden moving to Seattle makes so much sense. God is totally in this. Totally providing. I just need to cling to that faith and NEVER look back.
So Seattle is the right choice. God will provide. I am stoked!
