I was sitting on the floor of a loft in the house of our Romanian contacts. I had been in Ville Tecii for a few days with a couple teams who had been there for two weeks already. They had been having a rough go of it and since I had been there I wanted to make sure we were being intentional with our worship. We wanted to change the atmosphere. There were more than a couple folks we needed to shift from negativity to optimism.
So we’re sitting on the floor singing and we get into a bit of a rhythm. At one point someone begins to sing a hymn [I don’t remember which one]. It was a really peaceful tone as we sang together. I stopped singing and just sat in the worship of the Church. I like to do that sometimes — to let the praises of the Bride of Christ wash over me. And in that moment I felt the love of the Lord.
I looked across the room and I saw a girl on one of the teams just lost in the connection with the Lord that you can only find in worship. And in that moment I saw how God loves us. No joke, I got a picture of the final scene from the movie Dirty Dancing. And when I say I “got a picture” it’s not like I had a vision, it wasn’t like visual sight. It’s more like all of a sudden I had an understanding of an image. I knew that in that moment the Lord was walking over to us and He adored us. He adored me. And I thought, “Oh wow! He’s looking at us! He’s looking at me!”
I never quite understood when people talked about the Lover Heart of God. I never quite understood when people talked about the Lord pursuing my heart. There are whole books written on the Song of Solomon and how I am His beloved. I never quite got it. Maybe it’s because I’m a guy and in most romantic relationships here on Earth I am designed to do the pursuing.
But, all of sudden, in that moment in Romania, sitting on the floor in a loft, I knew just a little bit better how girls sometimes feel. I knew that God, our groom, was looking at us. I felt like blushing. “Who am I, that he would pay attention to me? Why does He care so much?”
And that’s the image I got. Our heavenly groom was walking across the room to pull us out of the corner. Because even in our most insecure times, even when we aren’t sure if there’s anything good we can do, when we barely have an idea of who we are, the Lord walks across the room and pulls us onto the dance floor. Not for what we’ve done or for what we’ve said, but simply because He loves us. He thinks we’re beautiful [another adjective that’s tough for us guys to swallow] and He wants everyone to know it.
That was a big revelation for me. To understand that what I feel for my fiance is just a faint shadow of what the Lord feels for me. When we lock eyes across the room and both feel more alive, that same thing is happening on a cosmic level with me and my heavenly groom.
How about you. Do you feel like you’re stuck in a corner? Is this a revelation
you’d really like to get a glimpse of? How would this kind of
revelation shift your perspective on God?
you’d really like to get a glimpse of? How would this kind of
revelation shift your perspective on God?
Is this side of the Lord something that’s tough for you to grasp? How is it easiest for you to see yourself in relation to the Lord? Are you His son/daughter? His servant? His soldier? Do you know what it means to be His lover?
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