Panama is one of my favorite countries. It is a favorite in a different way from Botswana and China, where I witnessed God in a way I had never seen Him before. I love Panama for the people and the cluture. I love to go into a room and get greated by a hug and a kiss. It makes you feel so welcome.
When I came to Panama for set up, I left discouraged. It was a tough week because I did not feel welcome in the place we were staying. God worked through me in that week by giving me peace that I needed to finish strong. God showed me things that made me understand that God will show me things in His own time and not mine. God changed my opinion of Panama this time. The time we stayed in a house and were truly welcomed. The family loved being around us and talking to us. I felt like I had lived there my whole life even though it was only a few days. I am going to leave wishing I had more time to just spend with our family.
I am now reaching a point of new struggling. I only have a little over a month left. I am thinking of my futrue. This is normal, but I wish I could focus completely on what I am what I am doing now. God has shown me a great plan for after the race. I am going to live with my sister in South Dakota and help take care of my two nieces. I have great peace about this part of my life. The thing I am starting to think of is at thing called a job. I am going to have to find a job and I am stuggling with thinking about this. I will not teach, but I will get a job in another profession. The job is to help with my student loans. I am just asking God to help me focus completely on him now and not what is to come. Help me Lord to trust you fully with Your plans for my life in the next year.
