The past few months have been difficult. You think you are just getting used to things and then something happens. You see a naked child, a person peeing at the side of the road, or the insane lack of road rules. The one thing that does not change is the fact that I miss something from home at least two or three times a week.
This blog is about something that I have been struggling with. When debating going on the race in April, I wanted to sign up for January 2008. The reason being my sister was 8 months pregnant when I left in September. I knew that I would miss the time of her having the child on October 9th. I was even told the name of the child was going to be Grace Harmony.
When arriving in Tha
iland, I was counting the days until Maria would have Grace. All of a sudden in Thailand, I was e-mailed that Maria would be induced a week early. I was never told why and then I was without internet for a whole week. I waited very patiently just to see a picture of my new niece. It was so difficult to know that I had a niece, but not be able to see her and not know why Maria had to have the baby early. I eventually found out that Grace was born on September 27th as a healthy child. Now I have the task of waiting 10 months until I get to meet her.
My family means a lot to me. I love them to death. They understand me more than I understand myself at times. I now have a new family. My family is my team of 5 other members. They tell me things that I do not know about myself and grow me in ways I do not understand. I am learning that I have an afterthought to everything that a person says. You may be onto your second, sometimes third thought, and I will comment about the first thing we talked about. This blog ended up being one of my afterthoughts. I am really missing Harriet and I am sad that I still have to wait 8 months until I get to meet Grace. Now that the holidays are here, it is harder. I have always been able to see Maria at Thanksgiving and Christmas. I know that this will not happen this year. I will think of them and call them, but it will not be the same. God will give me the strength to get through it all and it will be a glorious day that I get to pick up Harriet, give her a hug, and hold Grace for the first time.
