Wow! I can’t believe how fast the end of the race is approaching. This has been such a wonderful experience living on the mission field for almost a year. I have exactly 58 days before going home. While I sit here and wrestle with thoughts about going home I need to stay present on the field but it is hard for me to even be present thinking about my increasing need for financial support.
I have been putting this blog off for a long time. At the beginning of last month I was talking to my team about finances telling them how I didn’t know how I was gonna make it to November because of a few surprises that have come up this year. So my question to them was about their thoughts on writing a blog requesting help. Tori and Agnes, my fusion teammates, said that God will lay my needs on the hearts of my supporters whether or not I write a blog– God will take care of me. Then they prayed for me. And the next day I got a text from one of my best friends and said I was on her heart to see how my funds were. Ain’t my God good! I mean I was floored at how quickly God worked. But I still felt the need to write the blog but I was too scared of being vulnerable, too scared of what people would say. I doubted what God could do.
Fast forward a month and change, with a new team, I began to think about the blog again. One week ago today our team sat down and discussed how to overcome lies that the enemy tell us. This was an exercise that Hannah, or squad leader, participated in last month with her team. She began by asking a series of statement (lies) that we possibly believed about ourselves. Some of the statements sounded like this, “I am not worthy to receive anything from God,” “God loves other people more than He love me.” These type of lies are what the enemy uses to keep us from completely open to God. These can stand in the way of your blessing.
So when I asked a few of my new teammates about whether or not I should write this blog. I got a similar response from them as I did last month. Then once again, the doubt began to creep in, the lies began to creep in. “No one will give you money because they already gave,” “You should have budgeted your money better this year,” “You should have saved more money, then you wouldn’t be in this predicament.” I learned last week how to pray against those lies and speak truth of how I am a daughter of The King.
So I know that He wants me to step out on faith and be vulnerable with my community. I need help. I have only a few weeks left and I know that what I have will not carry me through until I get home. Even though I budgeted all the personal expenses I thought I would need for the Race I didn’t think about certain things such as surprise phone bills from ATT, unfortunate hospital and clinic visits, the need for new clothes because hand washing the same clothes over and over again makes holes come faster and much more.
I have given myself a personal goal to raise $500 to cover the last leg of the year. This will cover expenses that come up in the last two countries and anything that could come up when I get stateside. I appreciate your continued support and prayers throughout this journey. After reading this blog I want to encourage you to pray and see if you feel led to give.
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Thank you again for your prayers and support.
xoxo
Jackie
