He has captivated my heart. I am in love with my Beloved. This past week of training was incredible. The Lord keeps confirming my calling to serve overseas this year. I am experiencing God’s love in new ways, and I want to share His love with everyone that I meet. God is good. He loves us. He calls us beautiful. He desires an intimate relationship with us. The love of our Abba Father is endless, limitless. Oh, how I long to spend time with Him daily.
On July 27, my life changed forever. I experienced freedom that only comes from the Lord. Any guilt from past mistakes dissipated. I believed [for perhaps the first time] that the Lord sees me as beautiful. I am His daughter. I don’t have to perform for God. He knows me better than I know myself. Its funny how I forget the Lord KNOWS me. Nothing surprises Him. Oh, how I am falling in love with the Lord. It is grand.
I hope this stream of consciousness in my journal provides you a glimpse of the freedom I experienced last week.
[excerpt from my journal on July 27]
“I am dedicating my life solely unto you. I am yours, Father. I feel so free. I can breathe. I feel alive again. I feel like I could soar above the heavens. I could rest in your arms all day. You are designing an incredible story before me. You are the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I am exactly where you want me. I am called to go on the World Race. You say that I am your daughter. I know that you will work through me this year. Continue to do a work in me. Pour out your relentless love upon me. I desire you Father. May my life reflect your beauty. You are in the details. You are creative. You are weaving an intricate tapestry. Thread by thread. Moment my moment. Day by day. You give life, peace, joy, love, patience. You are real. I stand upon your promises. I am your daughter. I am leaving a legacy. This will be a challenging year but good. You are molding me into your image. You are transforming me into the woman of God that want me to be. I am embracing this change. I know this is where you desire me to be. This day I experienced your freedom like never before . . . Oh its incredible. Your peace feels oh so good.�
