The World Race is unlike anything I’ve ever been a part of.
Yes, the days are full of ministry.
There’s some days when you are in 5 countries in 24 hours time.
The next month is completely unknown up until the moment you get to your ministry…and even then it’s ever changing.
There’s constant blessings and struggles while living with 5 other people 24/7.
After a month of busyness, team growth, and personal growth, I was feeling exhausted.
I prayed “God…I have no idea what next month holds….no idea at all. I’m trusting you’ve got everything prepared and you’ll be with our team as we go into month 4.”
I sat on the 13 hour bus ride from Honduras to Guatemala, turned on my spotify and tried to drown out the noise of my present life, process the last month, and rest.
*Disclaimer: I love listening to music, Christian or Secular, and finding Jesus in the songs. Some people don’t understand how a love song between a guy and a girl can relate to our relationship with God, but a lot of the time God uses music to speak directly to me.*
The first song that came on was “I Want Crazy” by Hunter Hayes
(PS. I totally saw him sing this live when he opened for Carrie Underwood and it was epic)
If you haven’t heard the song click here and listen to it before going on:
Sorry if you think this is weird. I’m weird. WALKIN IN IT!
But I like to think of these songs as a duet between God and I.
Here’s how I interpreted the song.
My part is in the italics.
God’s part is in bold.
Interpretation in red. 🙂
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I’m booking myself a one way flight, gotta see the colors in your eyes.
Im telling myself I’m gonna be alright, without you baby is a waste of time.
Our first date the seasoned changed got washed away in the summer rain. You can’t undo a fall like this cuz love don’t know what distance is.
(Going on the world race, not sure what’s going to happen but I’m telling myself it’ll be alright. Without God it’s a waste of time. From the first moment on this adventure I was changed. I got totally washed up in God’s love that will forever change me no matter where I am.)
I know it’s crazy. But I don’t want good and I don’t want good enough I want cant sleep cant breathe without your love. Front porch and one more kiss, it doesn’t make sense to anybody else. (This isn’t what you’re used to, but I don’t want normal. If you want the best adventure with me you have to open up, not accept good or good enough and fall full force, head over heels, deeply in love with me and trust me and the amazing plans I have for us.)
Who cares if you’re all I think about I’ve searched the world and I know now it aint right if you aint lost your mind. (Since starting this adventure you’ve constantly been on my mind. Your love, your plans, and who you made me to be. You consume my thoughts. I run to you for every single thing because life without you is too much for me to handle. Sometimes I bet you think I’m crazy.)
I don’t want easy, I want crazy. Are you with me baby, let’s be crazy. (Being fragile in a sense of having to depend on me for everything is beautiful to me.I love when you come to me for every detail and burden. I’m strong enough to carry you, Jacie. Don’t be afraid to put it all on me. I want your crazy.)
I wanna be scared don’t wanna know why, wanna feel good don’t have to be right. The world makes all kinds of rules for love. I say you gotta let it do what it does. (No matter what gets thrown at me, I can trust that you saw it coming and you see the ending. That puts fear of the unknown in perspective. That takes pressure off of me to not mess up all the time, because you hold the outcome in your hands. There’s no way to earn your love. You just love and I soak it up.)
I don’t want just another hug and a kiss goodnight catchin up calls in a date sometimes. A love that we’re rebels and we still believe we’re the kind of crazy people wish that they could be. I know were crazy, yeah. (I don’t want an obligatory prayer every night. I don’t want you to feel like you have to spend time with me. I want constant communication and for you to walk in my presence at every moment. My love for you is unexplainable and our relationship cannot be comprehended by anyone who isn’t us. This love relationship is rare. People don’t understand it. But they desire it and need it even if they don’t realize it. However, many settle for good enough.)
But I don’t want good and I don’t want good enough I want cant sleep cant breath without your love. Front porch and one more kiss, it doesn’t make sense to anybody else. Who cares if you’re all I think about I’ve searched the world and I know now it aint right if you aint lost your mind. I don’t want easy, I want crazy. (I don’t want what’s normal. I’ve had a taste of crazy love and I can’t go back. This love is more difficult and is full of constant growth and struggle. This love isn’t easy. But I won’t trade it for anything.)
Now look at us baby tonight the midnight rules are breaking. Theres no such thing as wild enough and maybe we just think too much. Who needs to play it safe in love. Let’s be crazy. (Now that you’ve fully accepted my love and choose to walk in my presence constantly, there are no rules. Walk in my love and everything follows. No need to overthink things. Just love me and love others like I love you. That will leave your heart open to others, and that’s not “safe” by worldly standards. But I’m not a safe God. I’m a God of love and I want you to be full of Godly love. There’s no other way. And it’s crazy to walk in this kind of trusting love. But I’ll be crazy with you.
Who cares if we’re crazy.
We gotta be crazy
I know that we’re crazy.
So let’s be crazy.
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I couldn’t begin to write in a blog including all the ways God has worked in my life thus far on the race. I’m not the same person I was when I left and it’s crazy to think it’s only been 3 months and I still have 8 more months of growth.
Some of the words in red that I wrote were things squad members spoke over me and encouraged me with. All of what I wrote down is what God has been speaking to me and revealing to me since day one.
Sometimes God just likes to tie everything together with a Hunter Hayes song.
He’s crazy.
