I remember Your faithfulness to Noah.
I remember Your faithfulness to Moses.
I remember Your faithfulness to David.
And I remember

Your faithfulness to ME!


January 23, 2012
8:56AM, Shoreline Lake, Mountain View, CA

Dear Lord Jesus,
It's been a while since I journaled. Honestly, it's been too much all at once for me to chronicle anything.

God, I've been so hurt and tired.
Why did you let my heart get so broken?
I don't understand.

I feel a thorn deeply embedded in my chest, in my core, in my heart.
I feel poisoned by love — am I given over to its intoxicating effects?
I feel sick, tired, weakened and it's becoming a physical burden.
My body is stressed, Lord.

I just want to SCREAM sometimes.

Please, please, please show me something!!!

Restore to me the joy of my salvation. Send me a revelation. I want to know:
Where will I work for my bread? Where will I live? Who is my husband and when will he come for me? Will my family be restored in Christ soon?
 

Jesus here are my needs:
 
  • heal my broken heart
  • send me a job in ministry
  • I need a home — with permanence
  • direction for school: yes or no?
Jesus here are my wants:
 
  • SAVE my family
  • a husband who loves me with a Christ-like passion and to SERVE You together in a POWERHOUSE ministry
  • Hear You CLEARLY in my life
Jesus HEAR MY PRAYER!
I love you.



Faithful is He Who is calling you [to Himself] and utterly trustworthy, and He will also do it [fulfill His call by hallowing and keeping you]. 1 Thessalonians 5:24 [Amplified Version]