We were asked to write about our Expectations for the World Race. Here are my thoughts:
I’m not sure what to expect. I haven’t done enough reading to know what to expect based on other people’s blogs or stories. I don’t know that I want to know too much. I read my teammates blogs and think that they must be very spiritually rich and mature because of their expectations. It’s not a competition, but at the same time I wonder if my true expectations are too shallow or selfish?
I know I’m excited and scared. The idea of all this is so thrilling to me but the reality of actually doing all it takes to get there is crazy overwhelming. I’m thankful to Adventures in Missions for their structure, support, and pushing me through the admissions process. I need that and it’s part of the reason that I feel God has brought me to this particular experience. I would love to say that I embrace change, but in reality, I think I’m pretty hesitant to do it.
I expect a lot of things that are all about me. After all, I’m my biggest fan and tend to think about me a lot. I hope God will change that over the next year or so. Nevertheless, right now, I expect that I will be frustrated by stupid stuff that will be a waste of mental energy. I expect to be overwhelmed by situations and injustices that I can’t control and want to fix, but don’t know how or what to do. I expect to learn so much but not even realize it until later on. I expect to make new friends that feel like family and miss my family so much that it hurts. I expect to feel left out of the lives of those back home and mourn for that loss.
More things I expect to do:
- See another side (literally and figuratively) of the world and have my eyes opened to how blessed I am.
- Eat some yummy and yucky foods, but feel so adventurous while doing it.
- Be broken down by my circumstances and built up by the Lord’s strength.
- Have some really bad hair days for like 11 months straight.
I’m looking forward to the good and the bad and invite the Lord to be in all of it. My prayer in all of this is from Proverbs 3:5-6 that says:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
