I remember my last night that I was in Sterling, I was leaving Crossroads and I looked at Sarah and said, ” I can see myself finding a country, falling in love with a ministry, and moving there.”
I have fallen in love with countries and ministries. I would love to go back to some of the places where I have been, but the Lord has called me to something different.
Let me preface this announcement, there is a dramatic misconception that when you go on a year long, life-changing missions trip, you are a failure or you have failed if you don’t become a full-time missionary immediately after.
The previous statement is a MISCONCEPTION.
With that being said, I’ve known since month 4 where I was going after the Race. I genuinely just wanted to be wrong because I was battling with the lie I mentioned above.
After the Race, I will move back to Sterling for an unknown amount of time.
This disappointed me dramatically when I felt the Lord begin speaking this to me and confirming it to me repetitively, and it’s not because Sterling is a terrible place or that the people are horrible. I love the Sauk Valley, and I love the people there.
It’s just not what I planned on.
What am I going to do?
Work, save and pray about what’s next.
I will volunteer to serve wherever my church needs. I will work as hard as I can and save as much as I can at whatever job the Lord provides. And I will be a good steward with whatever I have been given.
Do I feel weird about this upcoming season? Heck yeah I do.
I don’t know what to think at all about this.
Here’s what I do know!
I am excited. The Lord has always shown me what’s next in His perfect time and He won’t stop now.
He’s always faithful and true to His promises.
I want to do something with my music. I’ve written 12 songs within the past year and I feel like the Lord wants to use it.
I know the Lord has called me to long-term missions. I just don’t know when and where.
Here is something I’ve learned this year that I’m clinging to.
I may have no clue what’s coming or what God has, but I know that He knows the plans He has for me. And I know that it’s rare for the Lord to give us more than one step at a time because when we have the whole plan in front of us, we tend to screw it up by “fixing” it.
I love the Sauk Valley area and the people in it. The Lord has taught me so much this year and completely transformed my life in ways I never thought possible. With a love for the Sauk Valley community, this life transformation that has taken place, and this intense desire for the Lord’s direction, I have no doubt that this next season will be incredible, and that the Lord will use so much of what He’s done in me to help other people and to be a part of the transformation taking place for His Kingdom and glory.
Get ready Sterling, I’m coming for you.
