The end is near. Wow dramatic right? We have two weeks from today until we are back on American soil. One day I’m “on” the Race and the next day I’m “off.” It sounds simple, to be here today then there the next day, but dang it’s going to be 100% different then the last 11 months of my life. There are so many thoughts and emotions that I know I’m only scratching the surface.
So I’ve already written a reflection blog on this year; see you love hard, you lose hard. So I guess you could call this a “looking forward” blog. To show the most candor in this blog I’m just going to write what I was thinking about in my journal this morning.
“Father I adore the fact that you are taking me home, back to Ohio, back to what I was born with. It’s exactly where you want me for the moment and I will enjoy and live it out to the fullest. I gave up everything at home and all that I knew, “a life of abandonment,” to come on the Race; now I’m doing the same thing. Leaving everything I know and have learned on the Race to go back home. Abandoning some of the best places, people, and experiences I’ve lived through to go and live out more in America. The journey continues and it always will. Especially with you Father. I’m going back to old relationships, starting new. Leaving these relationships that’ll never be the same as they are now. But God the beautiful thing is we never have to start over, never have to play catch up. The conversation will always continue through all this abandonment and new seasons. Our relationship will only continue to grow, through it all.”
That’s the biggest conclusion I can come to about going home for now. My time at home seems to be a blank canvas, I don’t have many plans. The Lord and I get to fill the days with beautiful scenes, experiences and people. Just like the Race I have to chose to love each day for what it is. I’ve learned and experienced so much in a small amount of time but one thing that translates through all of it is my choice everyday to find the Lord in expected and unexpected places, to always search for His love, no matter where I am.
Something I have been praying for and am asking prayer for is the transition home to be beautiful, whatever the Lord deems beautiful. It’s gonna be tough but I know there is beauty in store ??
Luke 9:24
For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.
